Oh Yes, I Did.

I WANT CLASS CHALET AGAIN NEXT YEAR.
Aloha or Costa Sands, i don't mind~
cramp room or not, i don't mind!
BUT BUT BUT got 2/5 '09 can lerhs!

monday
met the 2/5 peeps outside Lot 1 Mac.
damn noisy arh.
x.x
illegal gathering.
haha!
then headed of to the sub for our train to pasir ris.
no seat arhhhhh!
we sit on the ice box,
stood,
squat,
sit,
stand,
squat
sit
stand
squat
for 1 whole hour.
x.x
FINALLY reach Pasir Ris that time,
they announced that Chai Sing haven't reach!
OMG~
waited with our damn damn damn heavy things outside the train station.
x.x
he reach le then we go take shuttle bus overrrrrrrr.
H02 de room really de very small.
the first thing everybody did was chiong to upstairs de room.
then on the aircon.
so all the smelly smelly air from all the smelly smelly people all trapped in the room.
x.x x.x x.x
started raining outside.
D:
spoiled our day manzxzxzxxzxzxzxx!
so we sat around,
played twister,
Wii,
then went off to E!hub to play bowling.
i dunno how to play arh.
x.x
so didn't play.
:D:D:D
jarrett and Nic pro manzxxzxzxzxzx.
so many strikes.
then that keith.
hahahahahaha!
LONGKANG!
:X
HAHAHAA!
kay.
headed back to chalet to start BBQ.
YEAH FUN FUN FUN.
initially i sat there and stone stone stone.
but then soon after,
i got even more bored.
so i went to fan fan fan the thing.
haha!
had funnn~
:D
keith cut his finger.
then got a lot of blood.
i xia dao.
x.x
Si Ming was fanning me,
then i fan her back
then fan fan fan fan.
x.x OKAY. change.
haha!
we BBQ so much,
the pigs staying upstairs so conveniently come down kop,
then so back up.
x.x
chai sing and zhi der were fighting again!
OVER FOOD.
x.x
ate some food stashed away so i wasn't hungry.
:D
right!
played truth or dare after the BBQ.
they painted the boy's nails with black nail polish.
they all look like monsters.
hahaha!
okay
bathed then sit around.
went upstairs,
they all playing mahjong.
so i went back downstairs.
then a lot of people came down.
x.x
some garena people went off to the lan.
play one hour come back liao.
x.x
sat downstairs then sian sian sian sian
then played truth or dare again.
then Darren and Keith took the left over corn and started shooting at each other.
x.x
then they took the sparkling juice bottle and started shooting the corn inside.
HAHA,
the sparkling juice already got cork inside,
still must add corn?
O.O
HAHA!
then they boiled the corn and made cup corn!
YAYYAYYAY!
:D
that was 3 a.m in the morning.
x.x
ate,
played,
played,
played,
played
then slept.
the room so crammmmmmmmm!
so many pigs inside the room.
x.x
HAHAHA!
but still okay bah.
(:
at least got sleep. (:

tuesday.
went to eat mac early in the morning.
then everybody buay tahan.
all chiong back chalet sleep.
haha!
woke up around 8?
i think so.
had a hard time waking those pigs up.
x.x
cleared the whole chalet,
which looks like a pig sty by now.
and then checked out.
most of then went back home while,
Yu You, Si Ming, Elizabeth, Keith, Nicholas, Jarrett, Ling Kai and i
went off to cycle.
fun fun fun!
but damn tired ah.
saw jelly fishes in the big big longkang!
:D
returned bike,
headed home.
everybody conked out on the train.
x.x

class chalet rockkksssssss!
kay.
gtg school le.
BYEBYEBYE.
(:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r1EjBSSC9yk

c- walk video dedicated to our class.
behind got unglam pics.
sigh.
i cried.
):
I MISS TWO FIVE!
D:!

back from class chalet.
i can't open my small eyes.
x.x

class chalet was fun.
had a lot of injuries.
but had loads of fun.
(:
tyvm people.
(:

class chalet in 2 hours.

i hope it's true.
i hope it'll be that way.
i hope what you said will come true.
i really really hope so.

gonna post for every single person in class.

Qiao Ling - hey! remember? i was the first person to talk to you when you entered this school earlier this year. we'll still be seeing each other in MOTHER TONGUE CLASS! :D
you rock, Chio Bu.

Hui Xun - hey hey hey! sit infront of me de person! HAHAHA! sorry eh, for getting mad at you for not passing the worksheet/stuff fast enough. x.x dui bu qi. EXAM HAIR STYLE!

Kai Juan - YOOOOOOOOOOO!~ ayeayeaye! sorry ah, always say you act cute. x.x you already very cute. (: see you during prefects! OR MAYBE YOU'LL BE IN MY CLASS NEXT YEAR! YAYYAYYAYYAYYAYYAYYAYYAY! :D

Jia Xin - YO! don't act cute pl0x. FAIL. HAHAHAH! Jia Xin ah, smile more. you look like you wanna kill people. x.x but all in all, you rock in your studies. so you shall teach me your secrets. :D

Lee Ning - YO CHIO BU! :D glad that you've found JT. he's a great guy. (: don't worry, if he bullies you, i'll not let him off. i'll let history repeat itself. or maybe even worse. :/ wait and see. :D:D:D congrats ah! go pure physics! SMART :D

Xiao Qi - AYE YOU CHINESE LESSON TABLE PARTNER! THANKS AH! i know my chinese very bad. but you never gave up on me. you always patiently explained whatever shit i didn't understand. THANKS! :D

Elizabeth - YOYOYO! hahaha! though not very close to you, you're a damndamndamn nice person. :D always asking if your hair is okay x.x HAHAHA! it's very okay! :D

Afiqah - x3 means everything. lasted through it all. x3

Shafirah - x3 means everthing. through it all, staying strong. x3

Yu You - AYE YO! i think we're gonna be in the same class next year? (: HAHHA! through ups and downs, you were there lah! with all your pink paper and pen and thus, UBER PINK NOTES. :D

Priya - YOOOOOOOO!~ aye yo my first friend in this whole school! HONORED A NOT?! :D you rock priya. you really do. (:

Rachel - AYE HAMTARO! :D you're uber cute. and you're forever sleeping in class. x.x next year cannot already hor.

Pei Xuan - YOOOOOOOOOO! never really talk to you much. x.x but.. JIA YOUS FOR NEXT YEAR! :D

Aisyah - x3 staying strong :D

Sun Wen - aye yo! sit infront of me in chinese class de person! :D haha, last time i didn't really like you much. BUT! you changed! :D:D:D

Jing Mei - MONITRESS! YO! CHIO BU YOYOYO!~ my manga friend. :D:D:D

Si Ming - :D:D:D great that i got to know you eh? remember last time after recess you all cat fight in class. x.x but that was last year la. :D congrats ah, for getting into pure bio (:

PeiYi - AYE PIKACHUUUUUUUUUU/Toe/Bimbo! YOU AH! SIT BESIDE ME. ALWAYS READ STORY BOOK. x.x HAHAHA! you're a really great great great friend. :D

Kok Sin - AYE YO! cute guy! (: next year don't kachiao teachers to much hor! (:

Chai Sing - YO! hihihi! (:

Clement - YO! spare. 1 more minute cher! I BEG YOU CHER! LOL! sorry sorry. didn't mean to tease you. but haha! clement ah, mai kanchiong!

Kelvin - SIT BEHIND ME DE PERSON! :D! thank you for being there for me all the time. DON'T SLASH YOUR WRIST ANYMORE. OR I'LL TAKE CHOPPER CHOP YOUR HAND OFF! ROAR!

Jarrett - aiyo! YOU STUPID BIAN TAI! x.x

Jimson - spare jimson, spare. :D

Gyan - YO! you're a great friend. doing duty with you rocks to the MAXXXXXXX! we'll pwn next year again. FOYER DUTY! :D thanks ah, for being my listening ear previously. XIEXIENI.

Keith - HEY NO LIFE-R! keep playing PSP. x.x HAHAHA! aye dude, you're a great friend to share Guitar scores with. :D keep improving kay? JIAYOUS :D maybe you can go jam with my bro sometime. (: EDITED : haha, thanks for accompanying me during the chalet. if not i think i really sian until cannot sian already. we shall go ride bike with jarrett again next time kay? i miss pasir ris already. ): and that small cramp room with all 15 people sleeping in it. x.x haha!

Ayyappan - YO DUDE! (: thanks ah! for all your encouraging word. (:

Leroy - HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!~ though both of us lead very complicated lives, haha, i'm glad that i have a friend like you. one who can accompany me and shimin to plaza or lot. one who has so much fun with us. your C-Walk rocks dude. anything, feel free to tell me. we'll still go out for bubbletea with my little tortoise, shimin. :D aye dude, whatever your decision, i'll respect it. just don't hurt yourself or anything. (:

Luke - aye pervert. .__.

Nicholas - NIC-O- ASSSS! HEY NIC ASS! :D HIHIHIHIHIHIHIHI! :D

Zhi Der - heyyyyyyyyyyyyy~ hi :D

Syafii - YOOOO DUDE! stop ponning cca! treat her well kay? i had a hard time putting you two together. x.x sooooooo! CHERISH HER! (:

Chun Wen - HEY! i have a picture of you in my phone. it was from sunwen. she wanted me to defame you on my blog. HAHAHA! but thank your lucky stars, i too lazy to upload. x.x :D

Darren - HEY PIANO GUY! next time must share your scores with me. I'm learning Flight Of The Bumble Bee kay? so i shall pwn you very soon! (:

Xin Shen - PERVERT!

Lingkai - yo C-Walker! YOYOYO!

tired. x.x wrote so many things for so many people. x.x
sorry ah, i got quite tired at the end.
i'll edit when i have the time! (:
CLASS CHALET MONDAY!~ :D

last day of school.
Friend's mother's wake.
last carpark catching.

last.

Dearest Afiqah.

Happy birthday my dear.
you're finally 14.
which makes you 30 days older than me.
considering the fact that yes, October has 31 days.
I hope my math is not that bad. :/
2 years.
Last year.
i remember the time when we sat next to each other during the orientation game.
i didn't want to talk to you.
because i was from a all chinese school.
the only Malay i know was Half Malay.
so i was quite uneasy when i sat beside you.
However,
we opened up.
we grew into a 4 people group/gang.
3 Malays and a Chinese.
I was surprised that all these while you all accepted me.
i remember all my Malay language lessons with you all.
most of it were bad words uh.
:/
we spent all our time during morning assembly, recess and after school together.
all our laughter, all our tears.
we shared.
we were thirteen.
naive.
we fought.
i remember.
the day before sports day.
i apologise.
i was too selfish.
i remember not being able to sleep that night.
afraid for my performance for my race the coming day.
afraid that you all would leave me.
you all forgave me.
thank you.
we were thirteen.
every test,
every exam.
you would perform better than me.
you were NEVER arrogant.
you comforted me when i failed.
you congratulated me when i scored well.
you were there when i was down.
you were there to share my sorrows.
you were there all these while.
we formed a group called the Sewels.
we entered Secondary Two together.
Again, you were there.
always.
quietly by my side.
Such friendship.
when i was down.
i called you.
you comforted me.
told me everything would be alright.
though the sadness was still there.
it comforted me to know that someone still cares.
thank you.
everything will be alright my dear.
it will be alright.
now that we're leaving,
i take pleasure in telling you that you're the greatest friend anyone can have.
i'm sorry that i haven't spent enough time with all of you this year.
due to prefect's duty.
i'm truly sorry.
thank you for always being there.
i'll be right here where you need me.
i love you always, bestf.
happy 14th birthday.

love, graciesewel.

so screwed.
screwed.

YAY YAY YAY.
Piano skip all the way to grade 5.
:D

last day of SEP!
sparred with Jarrett and Joshua with Agnes and Winnie.
Fun yo!
then Jimson keep collecting the tennis balls,
put under the shade.
x.x
then like that how we play without the tennis balls?
HAHA.
sad mannn.
today last lesson liao.
D:

went back to school for Carnival.
x.x
so noisy man.
dunno how to last through tomorrow like that.
TSKKKKK.

stayed back to do last minute stuff for tomorrow's carnival.
THE BOYS DREW NAZI SIGN ON THE BOARD.
OMG~
went mac for lunch.
then went to NTUC to buy all the ice-cream and drinks.
x.x
heavy.
walked to Pei Yi's house to put all the stuff there.
her fridge no space.
x.x
HAHA
in the end,
the mother managed to SQUEEZE some space for us.
HAHA!
thanks aunteh!
tomorrow must go Pei Yi's house at 7.15
x.x
die~

tomorrow no cca~
:D:D:D
okayy~
talking to piggy.
BYEBYEBYE!

i remember.

the smile upon your face means the world to him.
but right now, you're broken.
lost.
it's not over babe.
he'll be back out.
don't worry.
28 days and counting.
your heart ain't gone.
it's still there.
babe, i don't understand.
i'm not him.
i can't sing you to sleep.
i can't make you smile like he does.
but i know.
that i can be there.
i know that i can take your tantrums.
to see you cry.
to make you smile.
to sing with you.
hopping you'll be happy all over again.
i know you can do it.
you helped me through my darkest moments.
i want to help you now.
i want to be there, like you were for me.
i'll be there for you Aisyah.
i promise.

i'm afraid to leave 2/5.
i'm afraid that i can't see the faces i know.
a new environment.
a new class.
i'm afraid i'll forget all the times we had together.
i hate friday.
i'm so not going to sleep during class chalet.
quality time with friends.
:)

OMG~
i'm so gonna watch 2012.
I Don't Care Man.
who wanna go watch with me?

Adam Lambert's "Time For Miracles" ROCKS.
:D

right.
Mini Tennis tomorrow.
again.
darn.
right.
BYEBYEBYE.

that pig say my FB picture look like mosquito.
x.x

4As for report book uh.
over 60 percent for overall.
I'M SAFE IN THE PREFECTORIAL!
:D
YEAH MAN.

home-ed with Aisyah.
sigh.
girl uh,
cheer up ah.
tonight if you can't sleep,
you can call me.
provided that i'm still awake.
x.x
don't worry too much kay?
we're there for you.
sayang kau.
(:

got woken up by anjiang at 10.42 am.
didn't pick up the phone~
:D
later he called twice.
so i had to call back.
that was 11.20
he told me to go to school to help with the presentation for Miss Sim.
and the presentation was to be shown TOMORROW.
OMG~
he told me to be in school by 12.
o.o
CANNOT LAH!
so last minute!
LOL!
then i over there keep asking him can don't go a not.
then he say
"I KNOW YOU VERY GOOD JUNIOR. LATER HELP ME BUY BURGER FROM MAC."
HAHAHA!
i asking you if i can don't go a not lor!
haha
in the end, i reached school at 12.15.
chiong-ed the presentation,
called a lot of people for the dedication.
wasted a lot of money on prepaid.
x.x
in the end Mrs Tang lent us the school's handphone to use.
:D
finished around 4.30
x.x
60 plus slides.
tim had to bring home to edit.
poor him.
HAHA.
then he tomorrow still need 7 am reach school.
LOL
sad life~
hope Miss Sim likes the presentation though.
(:

headed home with anjiang.
he challenged me the 5 minute walk home.
I DID IT OKAY?
HAHAHA!
saw eugene and bonnie on the way home.
i was changing song on my phone.
then walk too fast
didn't see lamppost in front of me.
ALMOST banged into it siah!
x.x
HAHAHA!

piggy still haven't sms me.
D:

right!
off to see if tim needs help
BYEBYEBYEBYEBYE.

Jay Chou - Feng

yo~
was so tired in school today i didn't really care that i failed my math,
terribly.
HAHA,
okay.
whutever.

went lot with Shi Min, JieLing (?), Leroy and Jaya.
Eva joined us later.
JAYA POLISHED OFF HIS CHICKEN RICE + SOUP + LEROY'S SOUP + Shimin&my ICE KACHANG
OMG~
haha!

HAHAHA~
btw,
charis looks like Olympic in the 9 o'clock show.
some lady got starstruck thinking that she saw charis when my cousin brought her out to play.
LOL~
and florence is visibly upset that everyone's calling her olympic.
HAHA!
:D
thaz Florence, Bok Woon and Charis up there, at the top of the post.

kay,
tired.
BYE.

YO!
new earpiece yo!
:D

so strong yet so fragile.

Class Chalet's confirmed yo!
NO OUTSIDERS!
LOL JOKE.
HAHA!

Shi Min, wanna go out with me tomorrow?
sms me yeah?
:D

My teeth is killing me.
D:

gosh.
what can i do tomorrow?

WAH PIANG.
wanted to spam that person's blog one.
But then spamming other people's blog is just for bo liao people.
nevermind~
next time she bother my friends again then say bah.
:D

LAST PAPER OVER~
okay
don't wanna post about the paper.
HAHA!

had to go for prefects' meeting initially.
waited until 1.30 already then they tell us don't need.
.__.
headed over to Lot 1 with Leroy and Jaya to find Shi Min, Valerie and Dawn.
went to rooftop garden to chat.
Leroy and how shoot his bottle cap then the cleaning aunty shout until
GODDAMN LOUD.
"WOI! BU YAO LUAN LUAN DIU LAH!"
LOL!
we all O.O!
HAHA!
then Valerie wanted to go buy bread for her parents.
so went downstairs.
Shi Min, Leroy and Jaya saw sushi then so happy.
.__.
HAHA!
then jaya hold the tray,
want to pass to aunty.
the aunty thought he chinese then spoke to him in chinese.
O.O
HAHA!
went home with Shi Min, Jaya and Leroy.
on the way back,
Shi Min and I keep purposely walk the wrong way.
Bluff them 3 times they also dunno.
still follow us.
then Shi Min and I anyhow run.
skali we all dunno where to go also.
HAHA!

kay~
piggy just fell asleep.
LATER THEN!
(:

i swear.
i swear.
i swear.
i'm sorry.

Mel didn't come today.
AGAIN.
MY SHADES MAN~

shucks.
17 bucks for the class chalet.
D:

i wanna sms piggy.
D:

p.s. Yes dorcas, i may be going for the YES camp.
but i don't care. you MUST celebrate my birthday on the 28th.
damn, why must they break camp on my birthday?
D: YOU MUST BUY ME A BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG PRESENT.
love, your bestfriend.
HAHAHAHHA!

this shit.

YOUR PROBLEM?
fuck man.

Long Juan Feng - Jay Chou

bwahs.
mugging~
don't disturb me.

Watch this.
HILARIOUS MAN!

THE LANDLORD ORIGINAL

slowfade - casting crowns.

screwed my science paper today.
):

history was fine.
thanks Mrs Liew.
:D

Kelvin finally got back his phone.
he told me had to go up to Mdm Liu to apologise.
i did.
she was understanding larh.

bribed my brother with 7 dollars to use his phone with NO condition.
:D:D:D
HAHAHA.
pro already.
:D

Starstruck - 3OH!3 ft. Katy Perry

Dear Agony.

can't wait for this to be over.

tired~
kay.
off to entertain myself.
BYEEE~

Love Me Lyrics

I read a note my grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long, long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I loved your grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then 'til I see you again
I'll be loving you, love, me

I read those words just hours before my grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church
Where me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my 15 years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then 'til I see you again
I'll be loving you, love me
Between now and then 'til I see you again
I'll be loving you, love, me

the ahgong so sweet.
HAHA.

BWAHS.
D:

-piggy,
OKAY! you too ah~
sorry.
no more prepaid.
D:
Jiayous for your paper kay?
CONCENTRATE!
:D

sososo sorry to everyone who was involved because of my stupid mistake.
SORRY!
D:

She told me, everything will be alright.
If only i could believe her.

haha,
almost late for school.
WHO AH?!
:X

LIT EXAM~
WAHPIANG.
idk how to write the essay leh!
haishhh.
):

English.
BWAHS.
die liao.
I SCREWED MY LETTER WRITING.

FAIL LA TODAY.
went home with shimin.
walk out of plaza.
then rain.
go mama shop.
stopped raining.
go out of mama shop.
rain.
walk to plaza(again)
RAIN.
in the enddd,
took bus home.
:D
(shuddup shimin, eat your noodles :D)

it's a different feeling.

i'm curious.

but i have my limits.

you do know them.

do you?

nevertheless,

i'm glad.

"a leader knows how to move on."

-Joanne Koh.

HAHAHA.

KAY.

tyvm.

alright,

off to mug.

i've given up already.
but ignoring is not forgetting.

thank you, for trusting me.

GONG XI FA CAI,
CHAO CHI BAI.

(pissed)
.__.
kayyyyyyyyyyyyy.

came to school with Shi Min today.
she so late ahhh.
tortoise.
:D
everything also so slow.
haha.

mugged like crazy.
will mug like crazy for another week or so.
.__.
KAYYYZXZX.
facebook!
and probably tumblr!
(:
byebyebyebye!

PE!~
played Bimbo-Pikazhu-Pikachu-Toe's game.
HUAHUAHUA.
i first round injure people liao.
somemore damn big cut.
.__.
then continued playing.
then whacked the same person again.
o.O
haha,
then i scared liao.
me and siming sit at the other half of the field.
HUAHUAHUA.

SKIPPPP.
Art.
second in class!
MEEEE! :D
score 95 for my SA 2 art piece.
WHOOOOOO.
:D

okay.
dinner time~
BYEBYEBYE
:D

Guess i'm back to square one.
memories are back to haunt.
can't study.
damn it.

kayyyyyyyyy.
gotta go.
BYE.

-lingkai,

i'll try to get 1st next year.

TRY.

haha.

realised today morning that my left leg thigh muscle is larger than the right thigh.

ain't right eh?

dominant leg's the right one.

whatever.

kaykaykay

off to studying.

BYE!

as if missing you isn't hard enough already.
why're you ignoring me?

graciesewel.tumblr.com
ain't started posting yet, though.

CROSS-COUNTRY

to him who is not, congrats on getting 2nd.

the route felt so much further than the practice run !
haha, at least i didn't stop. (:
but run until the end, Dickie shouted at me to sprint.
my leg chou jing. how to sprint?!
HAHA.
kayysssss.
congrats EVERYBODY.
(:

yesterday de yesterday.
PTM.
it's cool to see what you've done work.
GOODJOB EVERYBODY!
pray hard that we don't get complaints from the parents!

yesterdayyyy.
errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
?!
LOL.

KAYYY.
i wanna go sleep le.
BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE!

aisyah^ says:
*hey , is this g ?
grace. says:
*no is k
*ya la.
*okay
*start.
*whatcha want me to research on?
aisyah^ says:
*k chill -
*now we list out the five strategies first .
grace. says:
*okie
*listed out liao leh
*...
*errr.
aisyah^ says:
*cnfirm ^^
*hahaha
grace. says:
*what are the five?
*btw?
aisyah^ says:
*1) reservoir 2) NEWater 3)Marina Barrage 4) Msia 5) Ways of recycling.. (eg use pail instead of pipe whn want to wash car ?
grace. says:
*OKIE!
*sooo,
*we researched on which points ealier on just now?
aisyah^ says:
*okay umm ..
*you research on reservoir can ?
*i go with the Newater ..
grace. says:
*alright.
*:D
aisyah^ says:
*goodygood ^^v
*we do full research by today and sum it up by tmr how ?
grace. says:
*tmr
*i not
*free
aisyah^ says:
*uhkay .
*umm , still wna study for test .
*kay nvm .
grace. says:
*nvm la, chiong.
aisyah^ says:
*we do research to the max , i sum up .
grace. says:
*i don't plan to sleep
aisyah^ says:
*n_b
*whoa
grace. says:
*dunno why i these few days not tired.
aisyah^ says:
*i thot jst nw you were ?
grace. says:
*yeah
*in the afternoon
*but then comes to night.
*WHOA!
*attention to the max man!
aisyah^ says:
*HAHAHAHAHAH
*siao ting ting
grace. says:
*nooo
*is siao ting tong
*then correct(:
aisyah^ says:
*LOL
*cute k my lang
*HAHA
grace. says:
*kay lah. COMCENTRATE!
*NOISY LAH AISYAH!
*i tell your father!
*CONCENTRATE*
aisyah^ says:
*shuddup
grace. says:
*WHOOPPS
aisyah^ says:
*hahahahaha
*OoOh ya do take the picz too aitzy ?
grace. says:
*eh?
*spaek pwopwer engwish pl0x
aisyah^ says:
*soli lah
*take pictures also , how ? this is ma perfect english chica
grace. says:
*JOKE.
*cos i still donch understanch.

haha, kay. off to geog project.
(:

sometimes it get hard to breathe.

yes, i think i need my coffee.

completed all my homework.
(FINALLY)
haven't revise
(BOO)

right.
bye.

p.s, Ramdan, Treat her well. Cheers bestie.

My Damn Hot Nige Aviator.

youth yesterday.

i realised, doing my homework in the MRT is damn fun.

i dunno,

i think i study better outside of home and school.

church today.

Ramdan sms-ed my early in the morning today.

but then suddenly he stopped replying.

maybe connection got problem?

bro's sick.

and he's damn funny.

LMAO.

haha,

no elaboration needed.

but if you have a chance,

watch what he does and he's down with flu,

drowsy with medicine and is trying his best to find his bed.

HAHAHA.

if you asked me where'd i'd wanna go.
i'd say that i wanna go to heaven.
where everything is clear and precise.
where i know i'll be safe and sound.
but it's not time yet.
not yet.
please come back soon.

LORD, teach me how to love them.

i guess i was wrong.
i'll always be wrong.

one hell of a day.
ended with a low note i guess.
didn't go for cca.
so ramdan came over and talked to me.
HE OWES ME 1 DOLLAR.
haha.

you'll never understand the pain.
you won't, because you don't care.

LULZ,
FLUUUUUUUUUUUU.
so didn't go training!
then skali i tell them i want to go home.
she tell me wait for my mother.
i waited 2 hours.
.__.
shall pack more tissue for tomorrowwwww.

teacher wrote "Generally V. Good" for my compo pieceeee.
SEE GYAN, YOU WERE PWN-ED BY ME.

i touched Yu You's fats!
LOL.

okay.
off to watch "UP"
BYEBYEBYE.

It's not game over.
In fact, the game just started.
Revenge is a terrifying thing.
But once you're started, you're hooked.

stupid stupid stupid flu.
itchy throat and nose!
Do DNT that time, the sawdust all fly into my nose.
LOL!
But, i managed to complete my tortoise okay?

Recess Duty.
ehhh, patrol-ed 2nd floor.

Historyyyyyyy.
couldn't find my worksheet.
.__.

English.
(before english,)
MDM KOH "RAN" INTO OUR CLASSROOM.
ask us if we wanted A math or Computer Studies.
whole class raised their hands for A maths except for me and Yu You.
CMON LAH,
i F9 leh, how to take?!
when i never raise hand,
Mdm Koh give me that face.
KNN.
handed up "Scream" compo.
teacher didn't pass me back my compo piece.
means not more than 5 errors!

Geography.
Mdm Ruhaizah's on MC already.
SIGHHHH.
Miss Devi came to replace.
HAHA, she damn funny lah!

MT.
didn't study for my test.
so i answered i think 5 questions?
o.O

Lunch.
LULZ,
LEY HO MAHHHHH?

Science.
LULZ,
i saw the fuse wire snap okay?
FUN.

came home and then found that my Bimbo Ruler missing!
o.O
smsed Bimbo-Toe and asked for my ruler.
hahaha,
no have lehhh.
):

okay.
gotta edit Shfirah's work.
tomorrow then.

CHEEEEEBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
BO LIAO AH YOU?!
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

PE,
shouldn't have ran.
i couldn't breathe halfway.

Rocket science was fun.
acting as aunty lucy with Celia was even better.
ahahhaha! :D

cleaned up my room.
a bit of dust inhaled i couldn't breathe already.
maybe i've got asthma eh?
o.o

alright, headache.
heading off to homework again.
:/
sigh, sad life.

went pizza hut with church peeps yesterday.
thanks Sis Yi Han and Bro Bernard for the treat.
(:

sick today.
didn't go to church.
tsk.
the medcine make me so drowsy sia.
ROARRRRR.

tomorrow got chinese test?!
omg.

that pause too long.
i don't give a fuck anymore.

Gonna attend the Dead Sea Scrolls Exhibition tomorrow with the church peeps!
go gotta rush homework.
anyone keen to run with me in the evening?

Kanye West - Paranoid

Last day of Leadership Course today.
):
haish.
we shout so much until the 3/5 teacher come out ask us diam diam.
HAHAHA.

i hoped i helped.
be strong my dear.

saw Celia today.
she screamed/shouted " WO ZHI DAO NI ZAI DU JI WO DE MEI! "
then i did the aunty lucy zhao pai.
YAO YAO TOU :D
HEHEHE.

180th post!
TEEHEE.
okay.
i wanted to upload some
old pictures lost and found on FB.
but FACEBOOK IS BEING A BITCHHHHH~
ROAR.
okay, i'll talk to celia then (:

Violin's at home.
House's turning into a music house.
Guitar, Piano, Violin.
Probably next will be Drums.
o.o

Eating Machine.

something's seriously wrong with me.
after i finished my lunch, i ate 2/3 potatoes.
just after dinner, i'm eating again.
shit, eating disorder.
o.o

okayyyy, John didn't come to church today.
so no books.

looking forward can be hard.
i learnt it the hard way.

damn, theses few days i keep thinking about my childhood.
and, i just realised that Yu Hao owes me a snail.
haha! ROFL.

Kelvin's down with Influenza A,
gosh, i'm worried for him and myself.
o.O
later i also kena.
):

sigh, cca was very fun.
super tired.

right.
i'm dying already.
BYE.

one, two, three, four, off it goes.
Bang Bang Bang.

so much to say, so little time.

right.
today started with the right note, i guess.
i walked into the lift and plugged in my earpiece.
played Ignorance by Paramore.
probably freaked a child out.
the music was blasting.
Her father had to pat her on her head to reassure her.

Morning duty.
took down the decorations outside the staff room.
initially we were rather upset with having to remove the decorations.
but when we saw people pasting the stuff on Edmund,
we were immediately reminded of a Christmas tree.
interesting sight.
proceeded to Old Block patrol.
Daniel and I were still doing the
"Walao you know that Grace ah, she ____ _____ funny is it?"
played it for days already.
frankly, i got rather bored of it.
But it was better than nothing.

Had English for the first period?
i think so, not too sure.
o.o
yeah, i think so.
ah, went to the Library to do our "Scream" draft.
didn't manage to complete much.
first paragraph done.
rest of the time was spent laughing out loud with The Sewels. {3

had History.
omg, i always manage to pay attention in History lesson.
i don't know why i have this respect for Mrs Liew.
her lessons are damn interesting.
well, maybe not her.
but i love History (:

Math.
Learnt probability.
Bwahs.

Recess Duty.
as usual,
stuffed food in mouth and proceeded for duty.
Foyer duty.
didn't stop Bryan today.
was damn tired already.
Tired of having to shout at him yesterday.
Tired of having to chase him.
Tired, just tired.
wanted to ask around,
what did i do wrong.
what can i do to improve what i'm doing.
but i didn't.
i don't know why.
just tired.
wait till tomorrow then.
saw Syafii on the way back.
i'm sorry dude, take care.
just remember, you have us.
anything, just text.

Literature.
Miss ___ (what?)
didn't come.
so relief teacher came.

SKIPPPPPPPPPPP,

lunch.
went to eat lunch with Firah and Aisyah.
BIG BIG ACCIDENT HAPPENED BEFORE LUNCH.
*secret*
alright,
headed back to class.
played around for a bit,
suddenly saw Pei Yi crying.
omg, shocked.
Darren was already comforting her.
omg lah,
really didn't know what to do.
we were trying very hard to cheer her up, i think for 10 minutes?
o.o
then suddenly Darren said, "okay, talk to my little finger if you don't want to talk to us."
i played along,
drew a smiley dace on Darren's hand.
then Jarrett joined in.
i drew a smiley face on his palm.
BUT, he decided to draw another arch.
so, he got himself a nehnehpok.
.__.
then he drew it on his other hand too.
so he went,
"one hand is nehpok. two hand is nehnehpok. one is mee pok, two is meemeepok."
that really cheered Pei Yi up lah!
good job everyone! (:

didn't do IPW presentation.
.__.

mother tongue was total crap.
lost my story book.
so couldn't answer the questions in the test.
i had to put in any logical answer.
sad lah, sigh.

alright,
went home with Shi Min and my terribly heavy bag.

okayyy, posted quite a lot today eh?
haha, i'd be on hiatus for quite a while.
so toodles.

p.s, happy birthday Leroy!

omigawd!
yuici's on tvvvvvvvvvv!
omg so cute!
HAHAHA!
:D
cute boy :D
japanese family.
HAHAHA!
i still told him that if he was on tv i was the queen of England.
OPPS!
heehee.
will say sorry to him on sunday lah.

Leroy's birthday tomorrow.
o.o!
didn't know!
he was still doing that very neat trick.
impressed man!

omg.
o.o
peiyi's birthday the next next day.
DIEEEEE

-she and him.
haha, best of luck.
i hope you two will pursue your dreams.
and and and thus stop bugging me in class.
HEEEEE!

omg.
i'm so damn thin.
shouldn't have neglected my breakfast and lunch.
ROAR.
tsk.
can feel my ribcage all the way to my back.
my collar bone is so damn obvious i look anor.
maybe i really am.
tsk.
stupid.
being so thin sucks.
look like some walking zombie.
ROAR!

bro's off to the optics.
think he needs spects.
ROFL.
the church peeps have to see this man!
HAHAHAHAH!
wthhhh.
LOL!

tsk.
homework.
.__.

headed home with mel yesterday.
was laughing like crazy the whole MRT trip.
probably pissed quite a few people off eh?
haha.
had fun with her ITouch.
:D

meeting today.

teachers' day tomorrow.
hope everything goes well.
i love the deco man! :D

alrighty.
i'm gonna watch my show.
toodles.

when realisation hit,
hate kicks in.

today had been a disaster.
i was so stressed out i almost cried.
forgot to bring my presentation slides.
didn't have time to study for my chinese test (90 over words to learn or is it 100+)
was still upset over what happened yesterday.
didn't eat or sleep enough.
naturally lah.

if you think you're so great,
take a look at yourself.
take a look at your attitude.
are you even serious about this.
do you even think you deserve to be in this position.
do you even deserve my respect.
you don't deserve to be here.
you give that face whenever you're unhappy with something.
when others give you that face when they're not happy,
you complain.
you think that the whole world is against you.
please lah hor.
your thinking is goddamn immature.
you are so childish.
you changed to much.
i don't know you anymore.
shut up.

forget it.

time for a new skin!
bored of this man.
tsk.

todayyyyyyyy.

Morning Duty.
did old block patrol with what's her name?
sec 3 CO.
dunno what's her name.
SORRY!
then went for second duty.
didn't have to issue late commer's form cos it's raining.
i heard dennis's voice over the PA system okayyyyyyyyyyy.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH!
good job dude.
:D

DNT.
WAH.
i morning tie hair nice nice one hor.
then skali go dnt.
ROARRRR!
but then, managed to finish most of my job.
crazy man.
it's like what, chinese new year rush for goods.
use that to imagine us rushing to use the scroll saw.
HAHA!

Recess duty.
doing foyer duty pisses me off man.
Gyan had to tell me to stop giving that face.
haha, sorry.

History.
LIM CHIN SIONG AND FANG SWEE HUA(?) went to jail for 3 years.
I REMEMBERED.
HUAHUAHUA.

English.
TEEHEE.

Geography.
ah, Mdm Ruhaizah was really tired.
damn.

Mother Tongue.
(usual)

Lunch.

then

Prefect's Meeting.
well,
most people are waking up already.
C:
was really tired the whole time.
sigh.

sometimes there are things which happen.
things that doesn't make any sense to me.

p.s. facebook is being a bitch.
ROAR.

i admit that i am a disappointment.
i admit that i do not always try my best.
i admit that whatever you said earlier today was very true.
we just need to try our best.
all you want from us is to try our best.
sorry that you had to worry for us.
sorry that we got you so angry.
sorry.

todayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

duty.
I WAS ON TIME OKAY! :D

Maths.
I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD SET.
see, i so slow.
.__.

PE.
fun man!
FUN FUN FUN

recess duty.

Mother Tongue.
couldn't hear what the new teacher was speaking.
thus i was almost falling asleep.
had to doodle to keep myself awake.
sigh,
hope jiang lao shi would come back.
):

ART
SA piece.
i admit, i was pretty glad with my drawing(:
but the tonal difference were a pain in the ass.

English.
UGH!
i scored 10/12 for my compre okayyyy.
then skali teacher forgot to mark one question.
then i scored 9/12!
ROAR!
):

kk
gtg do homework.
BYEZXZX.

how can such a young child like you harbour that much hate?

tsk, left my ying yong wen in school.
cannot do homework siah.
):

forgot what i wanted to say.
tsk.
forget it man.

tired.
exhausted.
guess i should just get used to it.

sigh, science test next wed.
HOW COME I DUNNO?!
.__.

yesterday morning.
reported late for duty, again.
):
AnJiang told me that because i was late, i must stay in the void deck.
i did.
and i'm glad i did. (:
cos Krystal told me to accompany her to get the flags.
she was demonstrating how to hang the flag and how not to get the flag to drop on the floor.
pretty smart eh?

lessons were as usual.

CCA was boring.
i know coach doesn't like me.
he doesn't want me to be the captain.
but too bad.
you keep saying that i'm not commited.
your only basis of saying that is because i don't go for extra training.
but what do you want me to do?
my mother doesn't let me go.
she doesn't want to me go.
not me.
get the facts right.
i bought my jacket and tights because my dad wanted to buy them for me.
not because i wanted to act cool.
if you keep thinking that i'm not commited,
then forget it.
go find another school to coach.
all you do during cca is talk on the phone 80 percent of the time.
15 percent of the time you're sms-ing.
5 percent of the time you're screaming at us.
you don't even demonstrate a shit to us.
and you get paid 100 bucks per session.
what kind of shit is this?
i can be a better coach than you at this rate.
don't think just because you are a national champion it earns you the right to be the slackiest coach alive.
you can go eat shit.

okay.
prefect's meeting after cca.
*tired*
went to prefect room first.
watched and listened to Joanne and Mr Kong talk about the change of plans.
realised that well, teachers always get the final say.
sigh.
went to IT room 3 to get the gifts done.
worked till 7.50.
was really fun.
sigh.
went over to lot to get my dinner.
got screamed at by my mum when i got home at 10.
sigh.
screw.
shouldn't have went to lot.
):

listening to Kid Cudi - make her say

crazy bitch.
SIAO ZHA BOR.
KISS MAH ASS!

tsk, math test tomorrow.
confirm tio pwn by the test paper lah.
kns.
1 /15 for the last test.
WTF?!
LMAO.
hate this manzxzxz.

tsk.
TCH!
F OFF.

i feel sick manzxzxz.
):

saw Shi Hui and Li Bin just now.
AWWWWWW!
HAHAAH!

right.
i wanna go do homework already.
BUAIZXZX.

watched Boys over Flowers until want to cry man!
very much like mine but very much different.
watched the last ep on youtube though.
spoiler but worthed it.
(:

anjiang is crazy.
call me then forget what he want to say
CRAZY.

gaga rocks (:

aching like siao.

arm muscle cramp.
back pain.
leg wanna break already.
see lah.
who ask me pon cca.
TSK.

damn.
i wanna go east coast with Sun Wen they all.
but got church. ):
HMM,
nevermind then (:
right.

well,
i've decided not to go for the run.
didn't pass up the form.
crumpled and very NOT alone in the bin.
it's got friends okay?
don't want to see you.
don't want to run with you.
don't want to get whacked by somebody.
don't want to tear you two apart.
i'm so nice!
:D
LOL.
i'm such an asshole.

morning duty was fun lah,
but no nabil.
so no granade throwing, no gun shooting, no bazooka.
and yes, i did 3rd floor alone.
pretty freaky yeah?
i was walking up when my neck hair stood.
no reason.
suddenly.
reached the top of the stairs when i heard footsteps that should belong to the male teacher's.
but then,
no one was there.
then got key sound.
i thought got cleaning auntie.
then turn around again.
nobody.
then whatever.
maybe was from someother floors.
so went for duty.
abeh i saw the cleaning auntie come.
then suddenly she was gone.
o.o
SCARY MAN!
LOL.
whatever.

IPW was crazy man!
the readings stopped halfway.
so i decided to stop halfway and head over to mac.
went swing after that.
decided to pon chinese but didn't feel good about it.
so went for chinese anyway.
:D
GUAI CAN?

supposed to rush my IPW now.
lazy man!
SIGH.
right,
toodles.

sigh.

i (L) nanyang peps (:
miss them loads.

unsatisfied.
empty void.
tired.
upset.

i wish i was with the prefects/sewels&syafii now ):

בבקשה תגיד לו שאני לא אוהבת אותו.
בבקשה תגיד לו שאני אתן לו את ברכות.
בבקשה, אל תגיד לו שאני מתגעגעת אליו.
בבקשה.

i σας αγαπούσε τόσο βαθιά.
αλλά θα έπρεπε να πάει.
έπρεπε να σπάσει σε κομμάτια την καρδιά μου.

Αναρωτιέμαι.

Διερωτώμαι αν υπάρχει ακόμα η αγάπη μου.

αν εξακολουθούμε να γνωρίζουμε ότι υπάρχουν.

ε;

παρακαλούμε να εξετάσουμε μόνο στα μάτια και χαμόγελο.

παρακαλώ να μου ζωής λιγότερο από ό, τι ήδη τρομερό είναι.

παρακαλώ.

παρακαλώ μόνο να μου πει ότι δεν είστε θυμωμένος μαζί μου.

πείτε μου εσείς θα είστε εκεί.

παρακαλώ.

so much to do so little time.

have been very busy of late.
return home from school and then just conk out.
this will continue for a month or so yeah?
so don't expect much from me.
thanks.

TODAY (underline)
SUPER UBER VERY DE FUN.
:D

i love the prefectorial board OKAY?
{inserts many many many hearts}

forgot what i want to say already.
SOOO,
BYE.

p.s i miss my jiejie #2,
hope she comes tomorrow
:D

A TEENAGER'S VIEW OF HEAVEN

17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like. 'I wowed 'em,' he later told his father, Bruce. 'It's a killer. It's the bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote..' It also was the last.

Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.

The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. 'I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it,' Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. 'I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.'

Brian's Essay: The Room...
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was.

This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.

A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at .' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.

Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content.

I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!' In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.

And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was brighter than those around it,seemed newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.

No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.

He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. 'No!' I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side.

He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'-Phil. 4:13 'For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.' If you feel the same way forward it so the love of Jesus will touch their lives also My 'People I shared the gospel with' file just got bigger, how about yours?

IF THERE IS ONE EMAIL THAT I HAVE READ THAT NEEDS TO GO AROUND THE WORLD, IT IS THIS ONE, FOR THE CHRISTIAN OR NOT! MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
You don't have to share this with anybody, no one will know whether you did or not, but what do you feel in your heart?

hiatus.

2nd october.
i'll mark it down in my calender.
I'M GOING BACK TO NANYANG!
OMGGGGG!
MISS YOU GUYS!
):

teacher's day planning.
problem:
#1 cannot relay the message through class comm cos the people in class don't listen to them.
#2 because of #1, we have to use PA system.
#3 people don't even bother listening to the PA system. all they do is talk and talk.
#4 we have to rush up the proposal by wednesday.
#5 we have no idea what to do.
#6 we have no idea what gift to give.

shit.
headache.
later's kaien's baptism.
dear bro,
finally.
i will attend it later.
even if i have a big big headache.
coffee after?
of icecream?
haha,
alright.
i need sleep.
toodles.

oh boy,
my sister is finally 22.
SO OLD AH.
STILL SO SHORT SOMEMORE.

single is great (:
LALALA,okay syafii atok,
if post about him ever again.
you can slap me on the face, really really hard.

ohmanzxz.
tomorrow cca.
o.o
my leg so pain.
):

went to ask jiang lao shi if i could have remedial,
solo or no, i don't care.
she said no.
.__.
cos the school cannot arrange for us.
.__.

wake up calls by the sharpshooters,
it's time to snap out of it.
this ain't getting no where.
goodbye my lover.

HAHA,
midnight chat with my bro.
he was falling asleep the whole time.
chatted from 11 plus all the way to 1.
CHIANG CHIANG CHIANG CHIANG.
ohmanzxzx.
regretted not going to his school.
):
oh well,
whatever.

Lil boys chasing lil girls.
BWAHAHAH.
okay.
busy.
BYE!
and kaien, i forgot your URL.
AAHA, anyways, you're 17!
LOL, that was like so long ago.
.__.
haha, sorry,
and happy belated.
(:
and i tomorrow then reply your sms hor.
i today lazy.

think you so good.
shuddup lah.
you think that you know everything.
HAHA,
YA RIGHT.

BWAH.
sorry Gyan?
idk.
i think you read my post yesterday.
today whole science lesson dao me.
):
sorry.

sorry,
you really shouldn't like me.
sorry.

i love doing experiments with Gyan! (:
cos he does all the work and i do all the copying.
:)
grins.

stayed back in school for mother tongue.
x.x
HP : 10
MP : 0
EXP : 50
LOLLER.

wah, i miss hartiniloyyyyyyyyyyy.

just found out today that Celia quit cckss idol
o.o
oh manzxzx!

i dreamt of HM last night,
Jarrett ( is there a double "t") dreamt of me.
Yuyou dreamt of Jarret.
HAHA!

Go my child, go and spread chaos.

i don't know you,
but i want you.

racial harmony : HOT HOT HOT.
DINA WAS HOT, HARTINI WAS HOT,
I WAS SWEATING LIKE A PIG = HOT.
.___.
HAHA,
alright,

headache,
nothing to say,
GOODBYE.

ps, thanks syafii BF kambeng, for the sms,
thanks
HAHA

this video's for Celia,
Hartini put this up on her blog last time too,
was inspired.
listen to what he has to say,

will you finish strong?
dear Celia,
you're a really strong girl,
i know you'll get back up.
finish strong dear. (:

gonna wear malay costume tomorrow :D
haha, thank you Shafirah x33 , for lending.
loves.
(:

Syafii BF kambeng told me to tag his blog,
ah, okay.
gonna tag now,
BYE! (:

run my dear, run.
run away from this mess.
run away, from me.

luke's booking into army now,
goodluck dear brother,
may the Lord give you strength to last through this week.
meet you for spinellis next week(:

thank you for teaching me patience.

i still feel jinxed.
haha,
whatever.
tired,
brain not working.
eyes burning.
head aching.
so i should go sleep now.
toodles.
BTW,
happy birthday yuyou(:
cheer up,
ILY(:
x33

告诉自己，
一定要坚强。

hell's bells, my dear mockingbird.

Nabil sang this song to me.
LOLLER!

stupid mofo,
spread H1N1 to me mike,

pigpigpigpigpigpigpig,
spread H1N1 quick quick.
haha, what kind of english siah?
o.o

to yuyou,
babe, everything will be fine.
don't cry anymore kay?
i find song for you :)
NAH, HERE! :D

lyrics :
[Intro]
Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what'd daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
Whatchu crying about?
You got me.

[Verse 1]
Hailie, I know u miss your mom
And I know u miss your dad when I'm gone
But I'm tryin' to give you the life that I never had
I can see your sad
Even when you smile
Even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes
Deep inside you wanna cry
Cuz you're scared
I ain't there,
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more cryin'
Wipe them tears
Daddy's here
No more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it
We gon' do it
Lainie's uncle's crazy ain't he, yeah
But he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins
When it swirls
When it whirls
When it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move
Mama's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it
But somehow it seems, the harder that I try to do that
The more it backfires on me
All the things, growin' up
As daddy, daddy had to see
Daddy don't want you to see
But you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way,
Your mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don't see us ever being
Together ever again
Like we used to be like when we was teenagers
But then of course
Everything always happen for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something
We have no control over
And that's what destiny is
But no more worries
Rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up
And this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby don't you cry
Every thing's gonna be all right
Stiffin' that upper lip up little lady I told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We fear how we feel inside, it may seem a little crazy
Pretty baby but I promise, Mama's gon' be alright

[Verse two]
It's funny,
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree
And said some of 'em were from me,
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas
I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum,
See daddy had a job, but his job
Was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed or shot up on the block
And your mom, was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna to start a piggy bank for you
So you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars
'Till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your mamma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just starting to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguing a lot
So mama moved back on to Chalmers in a flat
One bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD
And met Dr. Dre and flew you and Mama out to see me,
But daddy had to work, you and mama had to leave me,
Then you started seeing daddy on the TV
And mama didn't like it
And you and Lainnie were too young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, mama developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it firsthand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin' in this empty house,
Just reminiscing. Looking at your baby pictures it just tricks me out
To see how much you both have grown it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Lainnie I'm talking to you too daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it
Shhh, mama's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby don't you cry
Every thing's gonna be all right
Stiffin' that upper lip up little lady I told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We fear how we feel inside, it may seem a little crazy
Pretty baby but I promise, mama's gon' be alright

[End chorus]
And if you ask me to, daddy's gonna buy you a mocking bird
I'ma give you the world, I'ma buy a diamond ring for you,
I'ma sing for you, I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'ma break that birdie's neck, I'll go back to the jeweler
Who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat
Don't fight with dad.
Ha ha

rather old song, yeah.
i remember when i was really really young,
i used to cry pretty much. :/
haha, alright,
then my dear bro sang this song to me.
haha, i love my big bro (:
x33

我逃避现实，
不敢面对现实。
别以为我是那么的坚强，
我一点也不是。
right,
don't think i'm that strong.
i just realised that i've been puting everything at the back of my mind,
pretending that nothing ever happened.
it made me feel as if i had short term memory,
forgetting everything.
tell you the truth,
i actually forgot who you were,
i forgot that my dad canned me so many times that i bled,
i forgot, everything.
what the hell is wrong with me?
o.o

Celia asked if i was okay during recess today.
touched (:
thanks babe! (:

stayed back after school for prefect's meeting.
ah, what joanne said was very true.
we must change before we expect others to change.
if not, we're just hypocrites what.

went to firah's house to get a traditional costume after the meeting.
haha, had fun.
get will soon okay xing xing?
loves (:

forgot to pass shimin her homework.
SORRY!
):
so forgetful siah, me.

ah, this video, song.

&&&, leroy's c walk video.

haha, i remember i had to hold leroy's hand during a PE game.
Celia was screaming in the background, HAHA.
had fun though(:

sorry, i know i ain't spending enough time with you all.
the only time i can spend with you is in class.
i admit,
i'm too busy.
duty every morning,
every recess.
sorry babes.
):

busy.
.__.
science IPW, track's outing proposal.
.__.
sigh.

shimin get well soon!
BUT! don't come back to school so soon.
we currently have 3 H1N1 cases.
one in 2/6 so don't come back so soon hor.

told you so,
Japan seas tio 7.5 earthquake.
told you so.
hello tsunami.

was sick yesterday.
today shimin sick ah.
):
wrote a note for her in class.
write until hand pain!

reported so early.
abeh skali an jiang say no duty.
.__.

classes were so damn boring can?
.__.

went to carpark with
chelsie, elizabeth, kaijuan,rachel, siming, peiyi
to play catching.
damn fun.
:D

went over to shimin's house to give her her homework.
SEE, I SO NICE :D
doctor tell her cannot go meet people.
walao eh, so sad. ):
aha, get well soon hor!
you gen wo gou gou shou le.
must keep the promise hor :D

go listen to fire burning - sean kingston
toodle people, bye!

supposed to go UNSW after school.
thermometer saved my day (:
temperature read 37.6 the first time round,
37.7 the second time round.
went home straight away.
HAHA.

so there's supposed to be a tsunami tomorrow?
ah.
i see.
pay day, mayday.

!@#$%^&*

pe was fun, after that everything was bullshit.
goodbye.

The Cranberries - Zombie.
yes, it's one of my favourite songs.
i like her voice.
childhood favourite eh,
i remember the whole lot of us primary 1s rocking to the radio.
those days,
long gone.
i miss those days, no matter how much i suffered.
i miss you guys, all of you.

total chaos.
don't remind me.
stupid timetable.

homework not done.
no mood to do.
don't wanna do.

tomorrow got pe eh?
yea, that's great.
so damn great.
WOW.
.___.
i sound so sacarstic.
i've yet to find a new sports rep.
seriously, i need some help.
please.

tomorrow's shafirah's 14th birthday already.
another birthday.
hey girl, congrats (:

counselling tomorrow yeah?
just great.
o.o
luckily it's not during art.
if not i'll sulk the whole damn day.
i'm gonna hate tomorrow.
seriously.

don't think you're so damn great cos you're a goddamn prefect.
we're one too.
don't give me your goddamn face.
stop bossing us around.
we've had enough.
seriously.

TTC is in the dota competition, or so i heard.
checked out their website.
HAHA!

the touch clan eh?
good luck guys (:
http://touchownyourass.blogspot.com/

rub my nose until it's gonna drop.
o.O

looking at the prefect's camp photos on facebook.
sigh, i miss the camp.
though..
okay, don't wanna mention about it.
looking forward to the december camp! (:

see, you changed so much.
we tried to help.
but you just didn't listen.
i tell you,
don't come looking for me when you need help anymore.
GO AWAY.
kns, only want to act cool only.
ccb.

sent for counselling, again.
third time this year.
this time, i really dunno what i did wrong.

burnt my hand during science experiment, again.
well gyan, don't feel so bad.
accidents happen, yes?

finally, the end of the week.
finally man.
so damn tired.
sigh.
):

H to the O to the M to the E to the D
with afiqah, aisyah and shafirah.
saw minchee and bliven at the bubble tea shop.
walked to the lrt man!
gosh.
so damn hot.
.__.

i dunwan go counselling.
):
DON'T WANT!
SPOIL MY DAY SIAH!
): !

omgomgomgomgomg!

I PUT ON WEIGHT!

1 KG!

HAHAHA!

1 more kg and i won't be underweight anymore!

:D HAHAHA!

yayness.

OH MANZX!

I LOVE PE.

RULE BREAKERS ROCKS TO THE CORE.

Mr Loy declared rule breakers for 2 mins,

so i carried the whole mini soccer goal post and ran away.

LMAO!

HAHAHA!

damn fun lah!

neh,

hartini should have come with me for my dental appointment.

the whole journey there and back got so many hot guys lah!

lol,

hope you're alright, take care girl (:

youyupeng gave me a letter today.

ohmanzxz,

made my day lah!

though no, it's not because of that,

but instead is because of something else,

i thank you for your concern.

thanks. (:

morning duty, tomorrow. AGAIN.

.__.

the whole term siah!

today i go report, then that dunno who tell me i can go back to class.

.__.

zao shuo mah!

then i can sleep!

.__.

damn,

the rubber bands in my teeth are hurting.

sigh.

i like falling slowly by kriss allen
and
permenant by david cook (:

shimin made me a card leh!

(insert MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY hearts)

HAHA!

thanks dear sister! (:

tables seperated cos of H1N1, oh well.

DnT was SO DAMN FUN LAH!

then after recess was ART.

yayness,

3 solid hours of drawing,

wo xi huan (:

math eh, i switched off.

mother tongue was fun lah,

cos i understood.

after school got UNSW,2 - 4.15 leh,

.__.

i was talking to kaijuan the whole time loh,

i think the teacher bu shuang us,

oh well.

kaijuan was poking me,

tickling me,

spraying me with her hand sanitizer bottle,

joking,

glad i sat beside her in class,

if not i confirm ROT.

haha, alright.

p.s,

ignore my previous post.

i was not in a right mind yesterday.

cos i skipped breakfast and lunch.

so a hungry is an angry man, yes?

alright,

toodles.

look around,
they left already.
look around.
JUST GODDAMN LOOK AROUND YOU!

thank you shimin for accompanying me last night.
thank you.
really.
<3

ridiculous.
absurb.
Idiot.

okay.
today was uh, i forgot?
i only remembered that i went home with nini,
HAHAHA! congrats babe, you passed! (:

went home with her, walk and walk and walk.
i sweated like a pig.
HAHAHA!
loller, she was supposed to treat me to tako, cos she lost the bet.
but i told her i wasn't a fan of tako.
so change.
she wanted to buy for me dunno what thing,
declined.
then she wanted to buy chicken rice.
so walked to the halal shop near her house.
walked passed a tree, she told me to hide under the tree,
i hid behind the tree.
CAN SEE ME?!
AHHA!
went to buy her chicken rice.
she wanted to treat me to kinder joy,
LOLLER!
DECLINED!
haha!
in the end she bought for me HL milk.
HHAHAHA!
she waited for the bus with me then homed.
had fun today, thanks nini. (:
loved (:

although you left,
i still want to be your friend.
although you left,
i still need you there to be the shoulder i can lean on.
but you left.
you said goodbye.
and then you were gone.
i put up a straight face whenever i see you.
but do you see the turmoil of emotions?
do you see the confusion in my eyes?
i miss you, HM.

omg it's gonna rain.
shit.
don't lightning (cross fingers)

school was confusing for me.
i was up and down.
and up and then down.
down before recess.
went CHAO HIGH during recess.
after recess emo liao.
._.
siao eh?

all the while i was hoping, hating, hurting.
no idea what the hell i was doing.
just wanna tell you, i'm sorry.

today today today!

math was okayyyyy.

learnt simultanious equations.

(1) + (2)

(1) - (2)

SEE I PAID ATTENTION.

PE was damn funny la!

Mr Lee didn't come.

so Mr Loi took over

EH CLEMENT!

YOU NEXT WEEK WANT PLAY WHAT BALLS AH?!

LOLLER!

recess bo 1 hour duty.

sad siah ):

nevermind.

had fun during duty.

square tables are easy to do.

History was fun lah,

Mrs Liew was very interective.

OEL, Mdm Aliza bo come.

so the relief teacher Mr Lim came.

nia.

got work to do.

finished early and thus went to library.

Pei-ed KJ for a while then went home.

alright, i have loads of chinese homework to do.

goodbye and goodnight.

how naive was i.

so naive, too naive.

ankle hurts like hell when i walk down the stairs,
SIGH.

school was FUN! (:
DnT was OKAYY.
1 hour recess duty.
FUN MAN!
math Mdm Koh bo come.
i think she quarantined.
LOL.
English WAS BLOODY FUN!
cher let us listen to simple plan songs.
then we had to debate some stuffs.
fun la! (:
Mother Tongue was okayy.
i paid 100 % attention hor!

-NINI,
cheer up(:
ILY kay? (:

saw Celia today,
she said HI!
so i said HI back! (:

Smacked Kelvin's head todayyy.
LOL!
so he became SHORT.
HAH!

went plaza with Shi Min, Bi Tong and her.
went LJs! LOL!
LONG JOHN SILVER.
haha!
okay.
i was BROKE.
so i went to naked fish express to buy fries.
left early with her.

okayy.
i didn't say everything in sequence.
so yea.
alright.
GOODBYE.

tio whacked for nothing.
6 smacks, 3 cane.
3 cane marks on my back man!
FOR NOTHING!
SIAO LA!
CRAZY.
SIAO
SIAO
SIAO
SIAO
SIAO
SIAO
SIAO

sprained my ankle man!
pain shit.
:/
sigh.

i wanna,

i don't wanna,

i wanna,

i don't wanna.

HEADACHE LA.

sigh.

i forgot what i wanted to blog about eh.

OH I REMEMBER LIAO.

DYLAN LIM XIN JIE!

I TELL YOU HOR.

YOU BETTER TELL ME WHERE YOU WANT THE T&F OUTING TO BE.

MDM ROSNAH WANTS THE PROPOSAL HOR.

I TELL YOU AH!

i tell you!

I DUNNO HOW TO WRITE PROPOSAL.

SO UNLESS YOU KNOW HOW TO,

WE BOTH GG.

LOL.

okay.

i said my piece.

i hope i scared the shit out of him.

HAHA.

didn't mean to.

was having fun er yi.

but seriously,

we need to get the proposal down.

and i am so not free everyday.

so he must sms me lo.

if not i chop off...

i don't tell you what i chop off.

tomorrow see you then tell you.

MUAHAHAHHAHA.

LOL!

lmaozxzx.

i'm bored.

and my headache's worsening.

damndamndamndamndanmdamndamndamn.

WHOOO.

i shall

MUSHROOMZOOM.

BYEEEEEEEE!

MUSHROOM ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMZXZXZ!

every piece of memory fight to surge back.

to flood my mind.

to flood my eyes with tears.

once again, it's another 28th.

another long day.

i swore to forget,

i swore to be strong.

but it ain't that easy eh?

don't even know why were're ignoring each other.

don't know why.

school reopens tomorrow eh?

i haven't finish my homework yet.

heck liao.

spam homework until my hand pain.

i wanna dedicate this song to the teachers.

go youtube find "heartless" by kanye west alright?

yeah.

for you teachers(:

didn't mean to call you heartless.

but it just turns out that i'm missing one too.

so sorry.

i really am.

HAH!

loller.

tomorrow school start ah!

happy shit man!

can see YOU YOU YOU YOU AND YOU! :D

YOU number 1 is Afiqah

YOU number 2 is Aisyah

YOU number 3 is Shafirah

YOU number 4 is prefectorial board peps

YOU number 5 is 2/5

YAYYYY

oh boyyy.

freaking tired.

HOW TO WAKE UP TOMORROW?!

sianzxzxz.

shall try not to sleep at 2 today.

TRY.

hah!

alrighty,

goodbye people.

AND GABS!

I GOT ONLINE LEH!

BUT YOU BO ONLINE!

LOLLOLLOL!

HAHAHAHA!

alright gabs, have fun in school(:

sayonara.

smses Tessa late last night/early today morning,
around 1.54 am.
i told her i needed a break.
she told me something really really sensible.
she said my brother told this to her.
WOW.
she said
" you can take a break, but not for too long. You have to come back too. "
aw man.
and and,
i told her my future was like a piece of shit.
she told me,
my future is not cast in stone.
God will show it to my in due time.
but whatever the way,
His plan is always perfect.

i amen to that.
sorry i didn't attend today's meeting.
sorry to have disappointed you.

Taylor Swift rapping

helloh helloh helloh!
:D

aw man.
i wanna puke already.
ugh.
i feel sick.
stay away from me okay?
:/
HAHA.

school's starting already(:
yayness.
finally.
tho, i know jiang lao shi will scream her head off at me.
i don't really care.
xD
tio spammed with her homework sia.
yuxuan tio phobia of chinese.
LOL!
i do my homework until i headache siah!
HAHAHA!

oh manzxzx.
1 whole term of morning duty.
later tio eye bags.
HAHA.

i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.
i shall remember to bring aisyah's present.

i shall!
:D

Michael Jackson passed away today.
so many people paying tribute.
so many people grieving.
but why did so many people slam charges on him when he was alive?
child molester, plastic nose, etc etc.
ain't it a little too late now?
this goodbye's final.
Michael Jackson IS gone.
Man In The Mirror really inspired me.
Thank you.

alright.
today was okayyy.
xiao yi came over to my house.
oh boy.
Donal's so damn tall.
i shall jump jump jump everyday.

okay.
NINI!
you ain't fat!
nonono.
i shall win the bet!
you shall treat me to tako.
WHOOOOO.
but seriously la, if you kena hnf,
i'll try to reach school early, before my duty and pei you run.
see i so nice(:
say thank you.
HAHA.
TAKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! :D

booyah!
slept late last night.
previous night too,
and the previous previous night.
can't sleep,
don't want to.
HAH, whatever.

smsed nini yesterday.
she replied 30 mins late!
so i fell asleep.
lol!
sorry!

WAHH.
back from camp (:
fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun !
(:

okay.
i'm super lazy to blog now a days.
so don't look forward.

happy for Celia (:
i really am.

dropped out of the world map for a few dayssss.
i'm BACK.
._.

alrights.
SORRY CELIA!
HAPPY BELATED!

camp tomorrow.
walking to school man!
whoooo!

alrights.
headache.

alrighty.

don't think's working eh?

nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i still miss you.

alrightyyyyyyyyyy.

went to Elizabeth's house to do project in the morningggggggg.

finished quite early.

called every possible person and asked if they wanted to go lot.

nobody was freeee.

O.O

alrightos.

then Kai En smsed.

then he came all the way from clementi to lot man!

LOLs!

i think a lot of people thought he was my boyfriend.

O.O

nononononononononono.

he's 17, i'm 14.

nonononononononononono.

nononononono.

cmi cmi cmi.

cannot.

don't.

like.

him.

he's.

my.

brother.

in.

Christ.

wookay?

wookay.

HAH.

alrightys.

i'm off to facebook.

EHHHHHHH.

Celia bo online!

): !

i realised, i haven't been talking to Wei Fung for SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOO

long.

haish.

shit,
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think
don't think

30 seconds to mars.
the kill.

30 seconds to mars.
from yesterday.

i like this video.
it's super cool.

toodles.

these 2 months have been hard.
sorted out a lot of my thinking.
yea, there were loads of happy moments.
loved every single one of them.
yea, i fell really hard.
but, i realised that there really wasn't a point in hating you.
no point.
nah.
i don't expect anything.
sure i miss you.
who wouldn't?
true enough,
this piece of memory will stick with me for a super large part of my life.
it'll hurt, a lot.
and whenever i see you,
well, good luck to me.
but thing is that, i learnt a lot.
a lot a lot.
though the process is painful,
though the scars will always be there,
i learnt a lesson.
it helped me grow closer to GOD.
but nah,
i feel distant from my parents.
there's a barrier.

alrighty.
that's my personal opinion.
i miss sms-ing Celia.
and i can't buy my own prepaid.
i'm BROKE.
damnit.
i hope she's coping well.
haish.
take care pretty lady.
i'll be there to root for you.
NUMBER 1 (:

#1: Da Yi's finally an official Christian! Praise the LORD! :D
#2: i deleted all the songs in my phone!
#3: i'm gonna go toy museum tomorrowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww :D

Happy Birthday Aisyah!
aku sayang kau! x33333333333
finally 14 eh?
okay.
i guess i'll buy you a chocolate cake.
(:

it's been 2 months of hell.
it's been 2 months of you, you and you not understanding.
i only wanted to be loved.
what's so wrong with that?
i tried my best to get through to you all already.
you guys didn't understand.
i tried already okay?
i tried so f-ing hard.
you guys don't understand a thing.
i need my own space too.
you guys say that you gave me a lot of space already.
fine.
then why don't i get to go out with my friends?
why do i only get 30 mins on the computer?

all this stuff didn't do anything to help my studies.
i failed, DAMNIT, I FAILED.
i'm not the academics person okay?!
i want to sprint.
it's what i'm good at.
what do you all know about my likes and dislikes?
i'm only asking you all that i can go for and extra training session what.
so big problem meh?

i'm a big fat sucker.
useless.
i know, i tried.
i tried my best.
i just cannot make it okay?
happy?!

okay
i wanna go cry already.
sorry for making you emo or whatever.
i really needa go.

bye.

Comments from the PEOPLE about sports day and x-country,
pardon the english.
i didn't type those out. xD

Events taken part in: 100m 200m 4x100m
Broke record in 200m and 4x100m
4x100 team: Brendon , Bing Han, Theva
“It was okkaayyy…..” Ishraq said.
Didn’t start on time
Could run even though it was raining
Starting blocks
Electronic Timing
Photo Finish
Give us more time to get ready after ‘On your mark’ command”
Follow all track and field rules

4x100m
Very nervous
“Very fun.”

“Didn’t like the sports day because 2 of his races were canceled due to the 3 days rain.”L L L

“A very good school event that encourages the importance of sports and help to promote the importance of exercising.”

“Fun and exciting.”

yup.

Sports Day 2009

Heart thumping fast, one could imagine that he was having a heart attack. Breathing in very slowly, the athlete reserved every ounce of energy for the burst of energy required for the perfect start. Blood pounding in his ears, he sucked in one last breath before he heard the gunshot. He sped off. His goal, was none other than the gold medal. He wanted to win. So did everyone else.
(singles race)

Adrenaline rushes. Everyone in the team slapped each other on the back as the egged each other on. Their common goal, to win the race. They wanted to win the relay they signed up for. They wanted to WIN.
(relay)

(edited)
Adreneline coursed through their veins giving them more speed and energy. Everyone in the team slapped each other on the back as the egged each other on. Their common goal, to win the race. They wanted to win the relay they signed up for. They wanted to WIN.
(relay)

okay chelsie, copy them over (:

posting from school!
8)
supposed to do some sports report.
but Mr Tay went out,
so we're spamming (:

wookay.
shit.
DAMNIT.
ahhh well.
bye.

posting with my sister 's phone (:
can't sleep,
don't wanna sleep.
something's bothering me, but idk what.
haish.

I need gabriel or kaien now.
but this phone took so long to load it. plus my prepaid's running low ):

haish.
okay typing on this thing is a pain in the ass. kay. bye. goodnight, takcare.

woke up LATE.

chionged to school for the re-exam.

then in the end, teacher never come.

WASTE OUR TIME.

waited for Miss Zhang.

came home starving.

DAMN.

haish ):!

no time do project niaaa.

jarrett go JB.

wth.

Happy belated 3 months for Kai Juan & Dylan!
(:

okay.
quiz hopping again.
dead bored.
nobody sms me.
==
all in school.
==
i think.
DAMN!

saw an actor on the bus just now.
OKAY.
not saw.
he was standing right beside me.
and the first thing he did was he knocked my arm.
DAMN IT.
PAIN HOR.
i looked up, gave him the Fcuk face and then realised that he was some actor.
dunno his name though.
whatever.

eh YOU.
GIVE UP.
you've been trying to jio me for 8 years already okay?
ah pro la.
persistant.
DOG.
give up.

eyes that lie.

school's BORING.
went lot after school.
shopped.
did project.
got chased out from the library.
did project,
shopped.
went homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

YAY.
i did it.
i posted.
(:
okay.
bye.

okay.
the other spam song.
Samuel's favourite.
HAHA.
here goes.

This song is dedicated to the God of spammers.
his name is mengsen
his my best friend
he calls me
spam up my phone
we keep silent keep quiet
disconnect the phone
we're spam buds
we're good friends
spam SPAM SPAM
we spam
u spam
i spam
22 cents

yup,
i enjoyed the conference SOSOSO much.
no matter how irritating the people were.
x.x
alrighty.
goodnight people.
(:
toodles.

doing quizzes everday on facebook.
not neccessary but an addiction.
i feel like a no lifer.
i really need to do something with me life.
oh yea,
i've decided to serve God by being a listening ear to people.

Blog hopping's fun.
especially reading people's archieves.
:D

Had a long long chat with Celia yesterday.
God knows how much she's suffering.
everytime it comes to the anniversary date she goes over the edge.
Girl,
it ain't good to drink beer.
now you drink 3 cans.
next time you got another failure again you drink more.
then more and more and more.
you're killing yourself slowly.
i gave you 2 choices to choose from.
you choose number 1.
i'm glad you did.
but you are dwelling in number 2.
you're suffering so so so much.
i know,
i've been there.
i dunno,
i may sound so grandmama.
but number 1 is a really tough journey.
but it's worth it.
it's worth the pain.
it took me a long 1 month dwelling in number 1.
i came out, victorious.
dwelling in number 2 is just pain pain and more pain.
you don't know where to go,
what to do.
you're gonna suffer and suffer and suffer.
you know that we don't want you to suffer.
cheer up (:

when nothing goes your way, you feel like a little bitch ruining your life.
it's so damn hard.
but you can't always bury your head in the ground like an ostrich.
you need to bring your head up and face your foe.
be strong and believe that you can do it.
when you fall,
i promise i'll be there to help you get it.
i promise i'll be there for you when you need me.
just don't text me when i'm sleeping.
i sleep like a pig.
cannot wake up de.

okay.
i'm super stressed now so i'll type type type until hopefully, my fingers drop off.

okay.
camp.
was great,
i told you.
this is a song Ern Xu created for me.
it's called I Don't Love You.
cos i regected a guy during the camp.
so it was written for me.
here goes.

" i come back to my room
and dial your number.
you don't pick up the phone,
and i don't know what to do.
you stand outside my door
and tell me you can't stand it no more.
and one more thing ,
I DON'T LOVE YOU. "

yup that's about it.
and yes,
i stood outside his door and regected him straight in his face.

okay.
here's another song.

"Through the darkness, he will lead you
away from sin and inner demons

So Serve by Faith
not by sight
let lord lead you
through the night

Serve for God
Not for Man
For the reward
God has plan!"

YUP!
okay.
i'm bored.
bye.

&&!
i have to save up about 50 bucks for my earpiece and Aisyah's present.
SHIT.
and it's the holidays.
wthhh.
i need my monehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I AM BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK (:
thank God for this camp.
really really enlightened.
I LOVE DADDY GOD MORE THAN WORDSSSSSSSSSS (:

okay people.

i won't be able to post for a few days.

i'll be off to camp.

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
okay.
had fun todayyyyyyy (:

went for the kick ass math lesson.
concentration span was bloody short.
^^
HAAH!
okay.
then went for prefect meeting.
Jarrett, Nicholas, Macalino cut botak
LMAOZX.
Botak Gang.

wookay.
went mac with Shi Min, Lee Ning, Kai Juan, Chelsie and Jarrett.
had loads of fun!
^^
went back to school after that.
so that someone could meet someone.
but that someone didn't want to meet that someone.
so the someone went home with us!
okay, are you confused yet?
^^

homed with Shi Min and Lee Ning,
LMAOZX!

went to Shi Min's house.

slacked.

went home at 4.

piano lesson was great uh?

SHI MIN!

i printed Bella's Lullaby de score for you 8)

see i so nice.

i'll pass them to you tomorrow kay?

okay.

i really wanna blog about what happened last night and today.

LAST NIGHT.

had a really good conversation with Shi Min (:

i was really really really upset.

we enlightened each other using the Scripture.

thank you beloved sister (:

had a really good conversation with Celia too. (:

talked heart to heart.

she's a really nice girl (:

a fall too hard, for her too.

we ain't believeing in love no more.

a load of bullshit, we said.

Celia, what you told me really caught me off guard.

i cannot believe that he did that to you two.

WHAT THE FUCK IS HIS PROBLEM?!

WHY THE FUCK DID HE DO THAT TO THEM?!

WHY THE FUCK DID HE CHANGE SO FUCKING MUCH?!

I'm disgusted, i really am.

and hey girl,

don't ever ever ever hurt yourself hor.

TODAY

woke up 9 plus plus.

called aisyah and chatted all the way to 11.

went over to her house and then to teck whye market.

walked everywhere.

then walked to the void deck.

walked pass Mac that time saw Celia and Jackson.

apparently they were with others.

waited at the busstop for afiqah.

when she finally came, she looked like a zombie.

HAHAHAHAAHHA!

okay.

went to class for UNSW math.

crap shit.

i was paying more attention to eating in class than completing my UNSW worksheet.

instead of finishing it, i asked afiqah & jarrett for the answers.

so i wasted my moneyyyyyy.

HAHAAH.

who cares?

wookay.

school again, tomorrow.

shit.

happy birthday lil chio bu baby (:
you're turning 1 today! (:
:D

cannot believe that to them.
you freaking TOOT!

a fall too hard.
scared shitless.
with the help of many,
i'm moving forward.
bit by bloody-fucking-shit-ass-fuck-you bits.
(pardon my crude words)
it's too fucking hard.
fucking fucking hard.
FUCK YOU HARD.

thank you babes and dudes,
for always being there for me.
though i may scream at you sometimes,
pardon me.
i really really really appreciate what you all have done for me.
x33 you all.

learning Bella'a Lullaby online,
through scribd and youtube.
ALMOST THERE!
ahahah!
can't reach some notes though.
wookay.
shall continueeeee.
(:

- syafii's ass, get well soon okay? (:

WAHHHHHHHH!
full full full!
WAHHHHHHHH!
haha okay, randomness.

meeting as usual.
payed a little more attention.
gained a little more.
(:

TADA!
(:

DIAM la hor.

everyday nagnagnag.

STFU.

those days when we risked everything just to talk.
those days long gone.
now i risk everything not to look at your face.
now i risk everything despite the fact that i know i want to talk to you again.
i'm afraid.
afraid that i'll hurt you more.
afraid that you're angry with me.
those days when you told that you weren't angry.
not angry at all.
long gone.
those days, long gone.
those days when you said you'll never leave me.
long gone.
i wish you were by my side right now.
to wipe every tear that fall.
nothing much changed after you were gone.
nothing much.
nothing except everything.

IMY so much.
do you?

it's been sosososososososossosososoososososossosoosos long already.
why do i still miss you?

imy.
):

post post post.
addict.
shit.
i forgot what i wanted to say.
lemme think.
OH YA.

FUCK THE HOLIDAYS.
i need to go back almost EVERYDAY.
FUCK YOU!

suddenly i feel as if i'm talking to you all over again.
but the reality is, he ain't you.
you ain't him.
suddenly.
everything happened suddenly.
everything.
nothing i can say,
nothing i can do.
i will try my best.
i will.
really.
the days dragged on and i felt myself dying all over again.
dying inside.

fool,
i've called myself,
her,
him,
them.

i need a break.

been chatting with you for so damn long now.
4 hours straight.
had fun.
yea.
thanks.

wah shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.
shit.

WHERE THE HELL IS PENG YUYOU?!
I NEED HER NOW!

):

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
8)

whoa.
sorry people.
for shouting at some of you.
was in a bloody bad mood earlier today.
sorry.

needa sleep.
so tired.
):

had fun chatting with gabriel/lols.

lmao.

sorry.

can't sms you.

SIM confiscated.

don't wait for my sms okay?

goodnight dude(:

wah shit.

sometimes it's better for you to just shut the
ab C de F ghij K lmnopq U stuvwxyz
up.
(note, jumble the letters up. can le.)
please?
don't pretend that you understand.
you don't.
i thought i could do it.
i thought i could understand why this happened.
i thought.
i realised today's the day.
4th.
it's been hard.
really hard.
i can't.
too hard.
i wish this wasn't true.
it really is hard.
):

neighbour told my mum that i looked pretty depressed recently.
oh.
okay.
thanks for being concerned.
but i really don't know what really is wrong with me.
i just shut downmost of the time.
shut down and stone.
no SIM card with me.
30 minutes entitled to MSN.
this is life.
i admit, i failed.
so many times.
at least i tried.
i tried so hard.
sometimes you just don't understand.

每当你看见我的时后, 你想的是什么?
每当你说你狠我的时后, 你想的是什么?
it's been so long.
so so so long.
i can't do it.
i can't.
i can't forget you.

todayyyyyyy.
skip skip skip.
Mother Tongue.
fung showed me a letter.
more specific?
a love letter.
HAHAHAHAHAHAAH!
wooooooooooooooooooo
someone got secret admirer siol.
somemore got lipstick.
==
goosebumps la PLEASE.
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
SCREAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSsss.
AHAHHAH.
i'm freaked.
really.
cannot imagine what weifung feels.
i already so freaked.
he confirm worse.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
SCREAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSss.
shudders.

stayed back for leadership thing and UNSW briefing.
o.o
the courses clashes with the church camp.
but i'll still be attending.
won't be enjoying it nia.
):
HAISH.

sorry kambeng, for supposedly ignoring you.
sorry.
i wasn't in a very good mood today.
SORRIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

today was

sucky.

WAHHAH.
busy nowwwwwwwww.

BYEE
oh yes.
HELLOH H1N1
:3

my heart's been broken a hundred times over.

but i'm still here.

i'm still standing.

it hurts.

but i can and will make it.

sorry.

HARLOWWWWWWWWW

waitwaitwait.

i wanna copy fung.

GOT MISS ME A NOT?!

AHHA!

wookay.

i bet you didn't.

hmm.

wookay.

i checked out Lols's friendster.

he's A GUY!

gay.

sorry sorry, joking er yi.

dui pu ci.

forgive aku okay?

HAHA

wookay.

dude, you're 19?!

hmm.

fake one right?

your picture very blurrrrr.

hmm.

wookay.

sorry people.

i may not be able to post everyday now.

really really really busy.

sorry.

i'll try my best though?

okay?

promised. (:

byeeee (:

x33

WAH SAIIIIII

prefect investiture thing tomorrow.

i have to reach school by 6.50 a.m.

gg liao.

cannot wake up laaaaaaa.

sulk.

wookay.

it feels rather wierd talking to somebody i don't know on my tagboard.

well, he/she seem to be a nice person la.

heck?

haha.

wookay.

you'd better not be a child molester or something ahh.

if not kambeng BOY friend will come box your face.

i guess?

AHHA.

wookay.

i shall go sort out my thoughts again, now.

bye.

MAC MAC MAC
oh boy, i'm growing fatttttttt.
):

i ain't got nothing much to say.
if i think of something, i'll update laterrrrrrrrrrr.
BUAIZ.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!
8)
- Charis, happy advanced birthday little babe, enjoy your 1 year wookay?
i x33 my niece. (:

Yesterday:
i became kambeng's GIRLfriend.
LOL CCB kambeng, my BOYfriend, haha!
saw two people cry.
aww man!
cheer up people!
talked to Likitha until she bared all her feelings, her hatred and everything she bottled up inside her.
she cried.
oh man babe!
she's a really nice kid.
it takes little time to know a person.
a much much much longer time to understand the person.
it takes time.
she's a really really really nice kid.
(:

lmao?
my CCB kambeng Boyfriend has to quit okay?
MUST MUST MUST.
if not i throw away.
then take away your wallet.
then you cannot obtain it.
okay?
KAMBENG BOYFRIEND CCB?

today:
went youth.
came back late.
papa was waiting for me at Senja LRT.
so sweet.
(:
thanks.
(:
tomorrow's gonna be his birthday.
i bought his present already.
(:
HUAHUAHUA
MY MONEY OKAY?!
HAHA!
wookay.
had dinner in mac.
spent two hours there with the church people, our big big gang.
spent our time eating.
making Kylie speak chinese, PWNYO.
playing the guitar(the angmohs were staring at us. xD)
watching John play his game. LOL DUDE! ZOOBIES?!
getting frustrated at Marble Madness.
ah.
that's why i went home late.
(:

i hate seeing people cry.
i hate it because i cannot do anything.
i like making people smile.
i like to see people smile.
no matter the cost.

sorry that i couldn't do anything.
i just sat there and watched you cry.
don't worry,
i love you, babe.
i'll always give you vegetarian sushi.
(no pork)

skip skip skip.
CCA!
i hurt my back, preety badly.
cannot run sia.
fucking pain.
shitttttttttttttt.
):

saw her cry before CCA.
my whole mood spoil.
babe, cheer up.
don't do anything rash kay?
x33

went for cell group.
wasn't listening.
wookay.
have to go back to school every single day of the first week of june.
what kind of crap is that?!
UGH.
okay.
whatever.

goodbye bastard.
there's really no use hoping.
but i hope that you'll just cease to exist in my life.
i'll deal with the pain later on.
i can and will do it.
i'm stronger than you think i am.
go on.
goodbye.

SLA just now.
was dismissed at 12.
HAHA.
Chelsie came over to my class and screamed my name cos she didn't see Mr Mok.
HAHA!
she so malu lo!
HAAHAHHA!
waited for Timothy.
then Ming Fei.
went over to thiong bahru.
dunno how spell.
oh wells.
went to CHIJ st theresa convent.
turns out, all four of us were Christians.
okay.
maybe not.
all of them were Catholic. i'm Christian.
oh wells.
we talk and laughed ( REALLY REALLY REALLY LOUD )
when the lesson started, all of us sian diao.
started at 2, ended at 5.30
seemed like eternity okay?
ROAR.
and we're supposed to organise a game of some sort for the whole school
and score a score of below 36 to pass the test and be a real Sports Leader.
wthhhhhhh.
okay.

DEAD TIRED.
CCA tomorrow.
o.o
fatigue.
AAHAHA!
okay
goodnight Kambeng.
go play your game and eat your dinner.
o.o
AHHA!
okay.
bye.

sucked big time today.

not much mood to blog.

but it's become a routine already.

i hope i could do something.

but it's forbidden.

i wished that i could at least let you know that i know what's happening.

but i can't, can i?

today was normal?

CCA was crap.

i felt like puking the whole first half of training.

i don't feel like i belong anymore.

i feel rejected, again.

dunno why.

don't ask me.

training ended by 3.16p.m

Mdm Rosnah came over and told us a lot of stuff.

yea.

and i completed the relay system thing already.

YAY.

then ______happened.

cheer up alrights?

Mr Kong came over and talked to me.

halfway through, a basketball flew towards our direction.

Mr Kong stopped it.

HAHAH!

thanks man!

yea.

Mr Kong was really nice la!

walked to the busstop with Ishraq.

initially the plan was to walk home with him.

then i Pang Seh-ed him!

SHIT.

sorry dude!

SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

walked walked walked and saw sheryl(?) -correct spelling? & Wendy.

walked home with them.

sheryl(?) told me loads of stuff about the prefect thing.

AWW man!

cannot her hor! she not suitable hor!

called Kambeng after dinner.

told him about the leadership course thing.

he hung up on me.

SO RUDE OKAY?!

ah well.

no more mood to blog.

cheer up.

when it's meant to be yours, it will be yours.

i know how you feel, seriously i do.

cheer up.

you have us.

x33

it hurts. ):

sorry babe,

sorry.

i realised i hurt you.

sorry.

i really am.

PEE ASS!
HAPPY THREE MONTHS
SHAFIRAH & JARRETT!
(:

#1 jarret shall not bully shafirah if not i'll kick his ass.
#2 jarret shall not bully shafirah if not i'll chop off his dick.
#3 jarret shall not bully shafirah if not i'll slap his face.

DONEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
(:

woke up dizzy.
couldn't really walk around, if not i'll faint.
puked after i ate my breakfast.
puked bile out.
o.o

ICT was crap.
):
duty was okay?
some guy said that he hated prefects.
oohkayyy.
whatdoyouwantmetosay?
i can give you my tie.
try being a prefect for a week.
tell me what you feel.
okay?
OKAY.
set.
Chelsie, no need scared de.
i also experienced this kind of thing before.
proud that you dealed with it really well.
proud.
(:

RP dunno what thing was okayyy?
dunno.

trip to Old Ford Factory was GREAT.
the video was another story though.
Syafii kambeng BULLY ME!
):!
i was nice enough to share with him my earpiece HAHAHAHA!
muay thai.
==
i know kung fu!
P.S, shake your ass more.
sing along to "glory glory man united at the same time okay?"
:D

i'll be going to CHIJ St Theresa's on thursday! 8)
glad that chelsie will be going too.
(:

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, LEE NING.
(sideway glance)
who you messaging ahh?
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, LEE NING!
HAHAHA.

i can't believe you told her.
forget it.
i don't want to talk to you anynore.

wah you all good la.
VERY GOOD.
keep up the GOOD work.
go on, continue!
continue la!
very good what you all.
hen haoooo.
sangat baik!
VERYGOOD.
go on,
go on.

yea.
SHIT YOU.
i cannot have my own space ah?
cannot?
okay la.
FINE.

I GIVE UP.

i try so hard for what?
i try so hard to make people happy for what?
i make myself so sad for what?
you all just don't care what.
i try my best for everything already
i tried okay?

sports i did the fucking best i could.
i achieved so much during the Nationals.
you all just okok then walk away.

i suck at studies okay?
i just suck
don't ask me why.

piano i tried my best.
but i'm still at the fucking pathetic grade 3.

EVERYTHING i gave my best shot.
you guys don't give a shit.
you guys only care about my studies.
got what fuck use?

you guys just don't give a shit.
everything, everything my and kor do is wrong.
okay.
fine.
i was the one at fault 3 months ago.
but you don't have to drag kor in right?
you don't have to say everthing that he do is wrong right?
this year he O's.
okay.
fine!
then?
continue?
say la!
nothing to say ah?
okay.
fine.
ah.
fine
jie's always in the right.
she big mah.
can work go earn money.
we all leh?
study so hard got what fuck use?
jie smart mah.
got her bachelor degree already.
me leh?
i got shit degree.
i work so hard to please you at my own expense for what?
everyday cry only what.
you'll never undrestand de la.

LEAVE ME ALONE.

exchanged phone with my brother.
8D

YUYOU!
so proud of you.
(:
huahuahua.

aisyah!
this lembu damn chio.
(:

phone's back,
without sim.
==
well, at least got music.
(:

wookay.
went shopping.
bought stuff for the sewels, pyy & pyx. LOL.
:D

youth later.
got to sleep.
==

fung, what if i die now?

What if i jump around and scream
FUCK YOU
in your face?
why should you care?
why should you?
you're someone who don't even care about people's feelings.
why should i care about yours?
WHY SHOULD I BLOODY CARE ABOUT YOU, YOU HEARTLESS FREAK?!
give me 3 reasons.
JUST 3.
you can give me, you pro.
you can give me, i will pei fu ni.
you can give you, i delete this post.
you can give me, i shall be the heartless freak instead.
ASK YOURSELF.
why do you deserve my sympathy?
why should i tell you that i care?
why should i?
you treat me like a bloody piece of shit.
attitude everyday.
WHY SHOULD I GIVE YOU FACE?

tamade .

sometimes you should just judge who your true friends are.
'cause sometimes they really just don't care.
Don't work so hard just to fit in.
'cause no matter how hard you try,
you may not.
you're just hurting yourself even more than you know.

YOU XIN! I DON'T CARE.
YOU
MUST
STAY
SANE.
NO
MATTER
WHAT.
DON'T HURT YOURSELF.
YOU
MUST
STAY
SANE
NO
MATTER
WHAT.
PLEASE!

YU YOU, you too!
babe,
you know that i care.
you know.
you know everything
i only want and need you to stay sane.
you have to.
no matter what.
i need you to stay sane in order to keep your sister sane.
i don't care what others say about you.
i don't care.
Yuyou,
you were the one who scream into my face when i gave up many times over.
you were one of those who told me to zheng zhuo qi lai when i wanted to kill myself.
you were there.
now i can't scream into your face.
i don't have your bloody house number.
SHIT.
zheng zhuo qi lai, please.

sometimes people don't think before they insult.
sometimes people don't think before they say they understand.
sometimes people don't think before they gossip.
sometimes people don't even know they have offended you.
sometimes people don't say sorry.
sometimes people try too hard.
sometimes people are blinded from the truth.

but

everyone ain't perfect.
they've got their own expectations.
they's got their own life to live.
but what about me?
so many misakes i've made.
what's done is done.
the degree of hurt is already there.
no matter how hard i try to atone for my sins,
i know that they'll forever what i did.
what i did back then.
i'm sorry, i really am.
but where do i get my apology from?
they don't apologise.
they don't know that they hurt me, so so so much.
i'm sorry, i really am.
but are you?

hey, i hope that you'll respect her.
she is your girlfriend.
but please, don't treat her like a slut, like an object to fufil your needs.
i beseech you, respect her.
if you do upset her or anything, be sure to look after your dick well.

WORRIED.
):

wookay.
had GREAT fun with the Sewels, Peng Yuyou and Kok Sin & gang in the afernoon.
thanks babe! (:
went Lot to get my father's birthday present.
then went to Library. wrote a note for Youxin.
yea.
what you said was really true.
ICANNOTBELIEVE.
really.
then went to Pizza Hut to eat lunch.
met Kok Sin and gang.
hah!
thanks Kok Sin, for being my butler, waiter.
(:
heart-heart talked with Aisyah and Afiqah.
(:
loves.
yea babes, ILY.

exams over(:
i'm getting my phone back(:
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
(:
wookay.
i needa bathe.
BYEEE

(:
i x33 the sewels, PYY, Kok Sin & gang.
Youxin, stay sane okay?
(:

naw, you dunno how much you suck.
(shrugs)

okayyy photos.

(taken by Shafirah) x33

(Taken by Shafirah) x33

(taken by Shafirah) x33

(Taken by Kambeng, Syafii)
you owe me a punch 8D

Mdm KOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! HAH!

i saw little dude yesterday! (:

DUTYY
o.o
kan mennnnnn.
lol.
so many insect there.
==
tomorrow last day duty le.
YESSSSSSSSSSSSS.
KICKASS.

okayy.
today's papers were CRAP.
Histowee was crap 'cause i didn't really sutdy.
MATH WAS STUPID.
i threw 14 bloody marks away because there wasn't enough time.
ROAR.
FAIL FAIL FAIL.

was bloody pissed off can?
heng got the sewels, gorrila's boyfriend and Kambeng.
HAD FUN!
(:
thanks babes and dude.
SYAFII YOU BLOODY KAMBENG!
you boxed my ears!
HAH
don't need to return my 50 cents.
it's okayyy.
(:

i saw you cry today.
i felt so damn inferior 'cause i couldn't do anything but sit beside you and stare ahead, fighting my own tears.
dearest PYY, i'm sorry.
yea.
what you told me totally made sense.
yes.
i'll forever be your apunehneh.
no, i'm not black, i don't look like priya.
and i don't know why you call me that.
But, as long as it makes you happy,
you can call me whatever you want.
yea, thanks babe for helping me realise that hating someone is really so hard.
i'd let go of the grudge.
i saw your tear roll down.
i (tio stunned)
babe, i'll bring tissue paper okay?
if not i'll run to the toilet to get toilet paper.
WHOOHOO.
hah okay babe, cheer up.

couldn't get up for duty today.
was super super super difficult.
yes, as libin said, i was kan-mening.
AHAH.
had to stand there for 30 mins.
plus plus plus wait until 3/3 return from the parade square.
leg pain.

Music was rather great.
i was really upset that this was the last music lesson already.
really really upset
yea, thanks Mr Low.
thanks for everything.
Mr Low showed us a video on one of his favourite bands.
Aerosmith.
OMG DUDE! okayy. i shall rock with you from now on.
:D

Mdm Koh took over our english lesson.
):
SO, I told Lee Ning to go give her the class dunno what 10 minutes before recess.
8)
jian.
i regret nia.
HAISH.
sorry Mdm Koh.
sorry.
):

corridor duty! 8)
i saw wei fung.
he had his usual hunch back okay?
HAHAHAHA!

whookay.
what's the next lesson?
OHYA.
LIT.

okay.
maggi head took over our class.
cos Miss Zee wasn't here.
AHHA
Syafii cheered me up wookay?
thanks dude, you rock.
:D

er
math
AGAIN.
MDMKOHAHH.
SIANATED.
):

SCIENCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
i FAILED!
WHOOKAYY.
i had a big see me on top of my test paper.
:D
:D:D:D:D:D

whookay.
i got some cheering up to do.
BABEＣＨＥＥＲＵＰ！　（：

SHIT.
forgot to wish Wei Fung happy birthday yesterday.
so yea.
happy belated, dude (:
8) 8D :) :/ :D
LOL.
good lor, you 14 already.
is till 13.
):

oh great. mr low's coming over.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
HAPPY BELATED, WEIFUNG! (:
PS, don't fight/get into trouble again okay?
(:

headacheeeeeeee.
headache 6 hours. gg.
damn pain.
heng no piano today.
whoo.

headache in school
then suddenly Mdm Koh come into our class.
my headache worsen sia.
she talk so fast.
i head pain lah!
):

i bet i'm going to cry when i have to delete our picture when i get back my phone.

quarreled with Kelvin today.
dude, i ain't your zah bor.
you don't have to cut yourself just because i hurt myself.
i don't have anything to do with you.
she's your zah bor, not me.
i don't want to be your zah bor la can?!
don't cut yourself, dude.
you can ignore me all your life if i hurt myself again.
just don't cut yourself.

if i could go back in time,
i would go back to three months ago.
if only i could.
if only.

i guess i'm suffering from insomnia?
so damn tired but just cannot fall asleep.
shit.

my tag board's kinda dead yea?
dunno why wei fung ain't tagging.

sometimes it's better not for you to know what happened to me.
sometimes it's better to stay oblivious.
sometimes it's better when i suffer alone.
sometimes i just hope i said the right things at the right time.
sometimes i hate myself for changing so much.
sometimes i hope that YOU you understand but, do you?

SOMETIMES.
damnit,
grace neo ming en,
stop dreaming.
idiot.

BOOYA go dieeeeeee.

i regret, regret and regret.
damnit.

school tomorowwwww.
got morning dutyyyyyyyyy.
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
cannot wake up nevermind ba.
xD

neh.
i wanna sleep.
8(

thinking of you is an understatement.

bloody fickle minded.
i wanna sleep.
cannot fall asleep.
fuck.
F
U
C
K

shit.
sorry.
i hurt myself again.
this time i bled rather badly.
sorry.
i can't stand it.
sorry.

into rock again.
cos i too emo le.
blast everything away.
i hate myself cos nobody understands.
i guess.
i hate myself.

okay.
don't watch the video.
it's disgusting.
but the song's nice.
don't say i didn't warn you.

hollywood whore - papa roach

Hollywood whore, passed out on the floor
I'm sorry but the partys over

Cocaine nose and trendy clothes
Gotta send her to rehab
She found out she has no soul,
But it really doesn't bother her
White trash queen, american dream
Oh what a role model
Throwing a fit, making a scene
Like no tomorrow

Hollywood whore
Passed out on the floor
Can't take it no more
I'm sorry but the party's over
The talk of the town
Is she's going down
I'm sorry but the party's over now

Awake by noon, drunk by four
Sucked up in the showbiz
Your so lame, your such a bore
I wanna kick your teeth in
Plastic smile to match your style
We can tell you got a face lift
Your so vein, oh so vile
Your a number one hit

Hollywood whore
Passed out on the floor
Can't take it no more
I'm sorry but the party's over
The talk of the town,
Is she's going down
I'm sorry but the party's over

The cameras are gone
And nobody screams
She couldn't survive her fifteen minutes of fame
Her friends are all gone,
She's going insane
She'll never survive without the money and fame
It's all going down the drain...

Hollywood whore
Passed out on the floor
I'm sorry but the party's over
The talk of the town,
Is she's going down
I'm sorry but that party's over

Hollywood whore
Passed out on the floor
I'm sorry but the party's over
The talk of the town,
Is she's going down
I'm sorry but that party's over

Wake up, the party's over
Wake up, the party's over
Wake up, the party's over
Wake up, the party's over now

(Hahaha) don't let the door hit ya where the
Good lord split ya hunny (hahahaha)

Wei Fung said that the police won't pursue the matter as long as the other party doesn't.
phew.
i hope they don't.
but i think that they will.
):
haish.

okayy.
i got my pther phone back.
the lao ah pek one.
without my sim card.
so it's just music music and music.
no sms, no calls.
'cause it's written "invalid sim"
HAHA.
okay.
i read my messages.
dated 25/1/09
the messages we sent each other when we were still friends.
i smiled.
finally, a memory that makes me smile.
i'll never delete those.
never.

okay.
i just sent my parents off for a Mother's day dinner date.
i planned it.
help them look for clothes and sent them off!
so nice.
(:

i told you it took me 2 years.
for you i think it'll be much, much, much more.
told you it wasn't for fun.
really.

LOOK AT MY FACE ( third picture) . JIMTARD STUCK HIS ARSE OUT. SO I OIIIIIIIIII. Then this bloody picture turned out like that. == DAMN JIMTARD.
I (L) Miss Sim.

failed my Mother Tongue paper.
not sad.
got slapped by Jarrett for cursing, not angry.

okayy.
today.
PE was great.
i had nothing to do.
cos none of the games looked interesting to me.
so i decided to run around the field with Lee Ning.
okayy.
4.37 mins - 3 rounds.
happy enough already.

koksinqq told me that i was ignoring him.
lol.
sorry.
no la.
i thought you ignoring me sia.
=x
sorry.
will talk to you more la!
(:

Miss Sim's last day!
): ): ):
ROAR!

it's scary how those memories like creeping back into your mind every now and then.
I've said sorry so many times that it sounds almost hollow.
i might as well avoid.
i tried.
was bloody hard, bloody heartwrenching.
they all say that it's like that.
i guess it is.
i find myself bloody stupid.
not facing the problem, but running away from it.
i guess i thought i'd be happy to just see you smile.
but sometimes that ain't enough.
bloody greedy person, ain't I?
an idiot who hasn't gotten back to earth, to reality, ain't I?
IDIOT,
GET
BACK
TO
EARTH.

qq, sorry for everything.
i'll change okay?
at the very least, i'll try my best.
sumpah.

Aisyah, cheer up.
you emo i emo.
i mutilate myself then you know.
stop emoing damnit.

english paper was okayy.
i laughed during the exam.
Kai Juan looked at me like i was crazy.
lol.
sorry.
i finished my paper really early.
had one hour to day dream.
i was thinking about all the fun i had during my sec 1 days.
then i laughed.
and was think about someone.
i guess?
got ting xie tomorrow.
plus yue du che yan.
gg already.
forget it.

went lot after school with Aisyah, Shafirah & her boyboy, Kelvin.
okay.
had fun.
Kelvin was stoning the whole time.
HAH.
STARE WHAT STARE?!
think you big i scared of you ah?!
think you run faster than me i scared of you ah?!
think you his friend i scared of you ah?!
DREAM ON!

God has answered my prayers.
why then, am i cursing and swearing at His decision?
why then am i blaming Him for everything?

i felt betrayed.
now i am betraying someone else.
& i am feeling damn bad about it.
sorry.

Miss Sim's last day with us tomorrow.
i WILL miss her.
damnit.
i'm sorry i always fail my math test.
thank you for helping me realise that math is actually a damn fun subject.
i will forever remember you.
thanks.
(L)

a little too not over you.
sumpah.
don't wanna sleep a night.
cos everytime i'm left alone, i think of you.
of everything we had.
get over it, they say.
not easy, really.
still i have to.
no matter how hard it will be.
sorry, i tried my best.
sumpah.

MYE tomorrow.
goodluck.
(:
okayy.
science was disgusting okay?
Abortion, STIs.
spoiled my appetite.
):
cruel people.
D:

you can go on hurting others.
not my business anymore.
my fault.
i didn't ask others what they thought of you.
and what the knew about you.
and most importantly,
about you.
i find this as a lesson learnt and not a loss.
goodbye my memories.

oh hellohs (:
today was okayyyyyy.
PYY.
cheer up.
yes.
i told you over the phone just now that when you guys break up,
he will cease to exist in your vocabulary anymore.
i hope you think it through, properly.
okayy.
concentrate in your studies.
(:

Wei Fung didn't come to school today.
):
get well soon dude(:

i feel sick anyways la.
hope it ain't fever.
shyte.

oh wells,
you don't know how much hurt you caused me.
you don't care either do you?
i don't need you to care either.
ftw.

heard "i can wait for ever"
over the radio yesterday.
i was reminded of SOMEONE okay?
it's been what?
10 years?
you like me so LONG already okay?
dude,
change target please.
i really really really do not deserve you.
you're from a damn good school.
you're from Hwa Chong.
dude.
i'm from Chua Chu Kang.
dude.
i am disliked by all the people in church cos they think i lian.
wtf.
okay.
ftw.
yea.
really.
i ain't lian.
i don't deserve you.
10 years.
DUDE!
10 YEARS!
okay.
Darryl Poh what what?
give up dude.
i don't like you.
we're just childhood friends.
ain't no chemistry.
dude.
go find another girl from Nanyang Girls High.
wish you luck.
(:

okay.
SCHOOL!
(L)
and yes.
found out a lot of stuffs today.
idk why nobody told me.
why nobody told me before i fell deeper in my mistake.
at least i ain't hurting myself anymore.
although i must admit that i self mutilitated myself oh so many times already.
but now, why should i hurt myself?
crazy ah?
it wasn't my fault in the first nia.
i feel used.
really.
i'm glad that i ain't used anymore.
i'm GLAD.
curses.

OHYES!
SORRY Samuel!
i didn't say bye to you yesterday.
sorry.
really.
see you on saturday.
(:
P.S.
tell me whether you're taking part in the AKIRA race kay?
take care.

&& happy birthday my dearest ah pek.
you turn 16 today.
my dearest kor.
enjoy.
(:

whooo new skin!
i likeeeeeeeeeee!
(:
New wallet.
i like, too!
:D
getting hamsters,
I LIKEEE!
okay.
siolxz.

was dragged to survey farms in the afternoon.
yea.
dragged.
but i enjoyed it in the end.
really.
first it was veg farm.
then goat farm.
then farmmart.
then lot 1.
then home.
wheee.
veg farm and goat farm were okayyy.
farmmart was boring.
lot 1 was great.
spent 55 bucks on my wallet and my bro's birthday present.
was about to get my hamsters when my momma stopped my dad.
but but but.
she promised to buy for me after the exams.

hell, i feel spoilt.
but i like kay?
(:

PWNED.

HAHAHAHAHAH!
Nigahiga is fucking gayyyy!
HAHAHAHAHA!
& thank you Kok Sin qq for the vids.
HAHAHAHA!
okay.
HAAHAHHAHAH!
shall continue watching.
byeeeeeeeeee. (:

Dead Bored.
go to hell.
no music.
confiscated.
wtf.
dying of boredom.
asses.
gimme back my only source of music.
):

oh yes.
i'm gonna forgo youth tomorrow.
don't feel like going.
gotta study.

currently missing the whole class, 2/5 '09.
&& my source of music.
damnit.
give it backkkkkkkkkkkk.

8)
i never felt happpier.
8)
HAHAHAH!
ok.
siolx.
dead bored.
needa sleep.

sorry wei fung,
i really dunno why i didn't want to meet you today.
no mood?
lol.
er
i pass to you on monday.
you better come back to school or i'll ask pyy my scream in your ear.
8)
take care.
(:

my bro threw the V day present out of the window for me.
thanks.
rock on.
(:
i have no need of you anymore.
GO TO HELL.

let the person who picks it up rejoice.
at least nobody would know, the pain i felt.
at least it's a blessing for them.
enjoy.

today was great, babi.
LOVED today. (:
thanks babes and handsomes for making today so great.
thanks. (:

yes, wei fung,
i'll be going over to look for you tomorrow.
haha.
will pass you something then.
REMEMBER.
look after it really really properly.
i hope this helps.
take care. (:

SYF thing tomorrow.
wtf.
i forgot.
oh wells.
at least i get to spend more time with them.
8)

i can't wait for saturday.
can see THEM.
misses.
and yes,
i wanna talk to you.
misses.
yearns.
oh well.

yes, my parents wanna engage another conselor for me.
i guess i need it?
and no
it's not about him anymore.
it about me, myself and I.
shouting matches almost every week.
i'm going crazy.
and and and.
i'm moving on already.
painful process but manageble.
it ain't something i need.
no need.

OH i'm online.
(wow)
haha!
okay.
nothing to say.
bye!
pee ass.
i miss wei fung.
):
he didn't come to school today.
i hope he's well.
):

okay people,
i quarreled with my parents, again.
so, i won't be online for a few days, i guess.
anything tag me.
or call my house phone.
thanks.
sorry.

it's the sheer joy of seeing you smile.
i'm glad.
(:

New Skin.
(:
JAIHO.
wheee.
okay.

i feel avoided.
oh wells.
it's life ain't it?

disappointed.
my NAPFA confirm get silver le.
haish.
ok.
forget it.

Kai Ming, get well soon.
don't over exert or you'll be hurting yourself.
Remember, being a sports boy doesn't mean that you're perfect.
it's okay to hurt yourself once in a while.
Get well soon. (:

Hui Xun, Get well soon too.
you looked pretty scary this afternoon.
you were damn pale okay?
drink loads of water.
& if you don't, i can always kick your chair and remind you. (:

Accomplishment: i learn finish "The 14th Song" from D-Gray man. (:
yayness.
(:

when they don't know what they are doing to me.
they aren't even aware that they are hurting their own daugther.
yeah.
continue with your ways.
i may just leave home.
or even better.
walk to the girl's home myself.
for No fucking reason.
i cannot stand living with you all anymore.
yea.
you confiscated my phone.
okay.
my fault.
you took away the laptop.
okay.
fine with me.
you scream at me for not keeping my room.
okay, my fault.
okay.
every thing's my fault okay?
hmm.
maybe you should take a look at your room too?
isn't it a bit too messed up?
isn't it?
take a look.
look at yourself before you decide to scream at me.
LOOK.
you guys caused so much hurt to me.
right afterwards you guys cry and ask me what wrong.
what do you expect me to say?
"you! you bloody bitch! you!"
you want me to say that?
you want me to make you die early?
this is the reason why i don't talk at home.
i hate talking to any of you.
none of you understand.
let alone feel my hurt.
i told you all so many times already.
leave me alone.
i'm fine being alone.
i ain't 4 years old already okay?
you may miss the times when i tug at your trousers.
the times when i cry when you guys disappeared.

but the fact is that i've grown up.
i don't want to stoop so low just to tug at your trousers.
i don't need to cry when i don't see you.
i've grown up.
i need my own freedom.

thank you for bringing me up.
thank you for spending so much money, time and effort on me,
a loser.
but i think it's time for you guys to let go of a few of your reins.
please.

i really should stop looking at the floor when i walk.
i almost knocked into a reversing car yesterday.
right after, i almost banged into the lamp post.

okayy.
wanted to rant much today.
but, after i watched the video on Nini's blog,
i realised.
my endless crapping are of no use.
it doesn't edify.
it's just plain empty words.
yes,
thank you Nini for the video.
Thank you Nick Vujicic for being such an inspiration.

Thank you God, Abba Father, my Saviour, My friend.
Thank you for being there always.
hands always outstretch and waiting for me, always.
there were times when i turned you down.
got mad at you.
But you, God were patient with me.
You thought me to stand up when i fall down.
You thought me to differentiate the right from wrong.
You stopped me from making mistakes.
Thank you.
words cannot describe.
even if the skies were of parchment made.
even if i tried to write Your magnificent glory across the skies,
it won't be enough.
'cause you were the one who died for me on the cross.
who would, for such a lowly person, die?
Thank you Lord,
I Love You.
Thank you for being the voice inside my head.
Gently pushing me on when times are bad.
Chiding me when i made mistakes.
Reminding me to thank you, always.
Being there when nobody is.
You've always been there.
Thank you Lord.
I pray for them.
For those who haven't believed.
That they will see your true light.
I pray for them.
Amen.

ohkayy.
God bless you all.
(: